All you need is love

hate the world

2006-03-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

There are times like this when you simply hate the world and loathe the people around you and it's not pms.

Have you ever felt like this before?

I've applied to extend my hall stay, but genuinely still considering. i hope people would miss me if i go haha

I'm so irritated by my blogskin now. i'll try to do up a new one soon. watch this space.

happy-dress-up-for-school day

2006-03-07T14:23:00.000+08:00

It's funny. all of a sudden, on a beautiful friday, i decided to dress up for class. ok maybe not entirely just for class cos i was on my way to watch 'Surath and friends' sing at the Munchie Monkeys cafe (some act-hip wannabe cafe in NUS). i mean, it's kinda like a social gathering isn't it, i thought we should wear nicely. i mean, it's a cafe afterall. and loads of people will be there.

Ok i shall stop making excuses. i'm just vain lah.

So anyhow, i decided to stop being a sloppy dresser for a day and look at lish and nooj's reaction.

Really, there's nothing to be shocked about, cos i only look like this.

ha! even fann wong has a flat and round nose so there's nothing wrong with me.

Nothing glamourous at all. so everyone now knows how crappy i usually look. but waddya expect from a girl who wakes up less than 1/2hour before class??!

Lish passed me a fan which contributed to a tai-tai look though.

I thought kim the korean boy wasn't bad at all either.

But HONESTLY, i thought lish was the sexiest of all. presenting.... the sexy librarian look.

This is the Hottest. Learn it well.

More photoS. Photos. phOtOs.

nooj & i

lish nooj & i

lish nooj & i again

The boys opposite. zee, kim, sunny and royston.

boo

I was wearing a nice thick pink tube top and cover-up and my new belt bought at the arts bazaar but we forgot to take full-bodied shots so yall can't see my butterfly belt that's so pretty and cheap haha...

As you can see, i'm very proud of myself for making the effort to dress-up for school. i think it's fun and TOTALLY COOL. but i'm still too lazy and sloppy.

relatonship illusions

2006-03-04T17:54:00.000+08:00

I think fire drills are pointless. at least the ones that i've experienced. they let you know that there'll be one beforehand. if there's a REAL fire i would have grabbed my laptop+camera+handphone+mp3 player+my books and assignments and beauty and the beast puzzle. so would the rest of the people. so obviously that would take much more time then a FAKE fire. designated routes are stupid. what if the fire happens within the route? singaporeans love sticking to rules and law so much, they'd probably run through the fire cos the instruction says you must walk through corridor B briskly, while the foreign students will look for alternative routes and escape unscathed.

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Being in a relationship is strange. it's like a working on a long term project. it brings about highs and lows. when you are at your highest you feel like there would never be a low. but when you are low you start to think whether the highs are merely illusions.

my house

2006-03-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

Look! i decided to be bo liao like pearline and drew my own house too!

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. son. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

No leh i don't wanna live alone. 'you always want to live alone'. 'You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible'. what a contradiction!! gah.

tammy nyp

2006-03-01T17:07:00.000+08:00

The whole world is searching for a certain home-made sex video of a 17-year-old girl. this specific term 'tammy nyp' has racked up the no. 1 spot in major search engines. tell me, aren't there enough legal porn out there?

Asian Aerospace 2006

2006-02-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

I've got a nice sunburn now =D

When people ask me "what happened?", i usually tell them that in short, i went for the Asian Aerospace 2006 on saturday and it was a very sunny day. yes i burn that easily. just by sitting on the grass for an hour watching the fighter planes zooming around gave me a distinct tan line on my feet. but i was quite happy with the tan though, it seemed to make my complexion appear a tad less bad. and tan lines are sexy.

I had a great time there, disregarding the hellish weather. =D don's camera died so we didn't get to take many pictures. with my bimbo phone, i managed to take some pictures of the F-15 & F-16 and something called Bertley? i think.

Don seemed to think that i didn't understand much of what he was explaining to me, about planes and engines and more BOY stuff. to show that i'm really not a bimbo, let me tell you that.....

We have no F-15, they will take some years to arrive, and the closest we have is the F-16. so when sunny warned the guys not to bully me in fear of "brandon shooting you down with his F-15", it's theoratically incorrect.

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The basic procedure of a plane engine is 1) suck 2) squeeze 3) bang 4) blow. take in the air, compress it, combustion then BANG and GO!

The F-15 is the strongest and most powerful fighter plane that can perform stunts, i mean, perform maneuvers that other planes can't.

And when you're doing stunts... er, i mean, zooming around left right upside down with the enemy at your tail, you could feel multiple times of gravity exerting on you. that's why i say pilots will have saggy skin. but he insisted that they get more muscular instead. whatever.

The roundish flat thing on top of planes, is radar.

The UAV is a man-less plane, controlled from the ground. can survey the vicinity with its camera.

The A-380 is the biggest plane in the world and will first be launched by non-other than our very own Singapore airlines. great way to fly yeah.

Ok i think that's about enough to prove my intelligence. haha whee totally cool! planes are like, how fun, girlfriend!

exciting campus life - or lack thereof

2006-02-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

I've just visited wenyan's blog and i'm so jealous of her! i wanna go overseas too! some time ago i was telling Desiree that back then when i was young and naive, i USED TO think that university life is FUN and EXCITING where youngsters skateboard around campus and sit on grasses with lunch and discuss poetry. i'm like, SO depressed now.

Valentine's day-outdated

2006-02-23T00:58:00.001+08:00

OK more than 1 week has passed since vday but i'm blogging about it now. haha. i'm pretty busy you know.

SO anyway while i gloomily thought that he's gonna be stuck in camp on that fateful day, he called in the evening and happily announced that there's DELIVERY for me at the gate. whee! the delivered was the man himself! and while he was here he delivered some flowers and a pretty little jigsaw~

A dozen roses

Accompanied by a bear-so-sweet...

We complete the missing pieces!

A photo awfully taken but ack what the hell.

Love em' flowers!

In return i got him a binder, and drew... or rather attempted to draw some cute pictures and words... and inserted them into the binder. completely screwed up the fabric paint which promised to 'puff up' when heated with a hair-dryer HAHA. it gave me hell.

End product

Look closer, it's damn ugly. boohoo... sorry :'(

Despite the screwed up attempt, he seems to like it a lot. yay =)

Ok i realised that i'm really spoilt to death. a vday with good company good dinner good dessert good fireworks good flowers good present it's too GOOD to be true. maybe i'll get my retribution next year. =S

Thanks for everything ^-^

2006-02-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

Make-up v day

2006-02-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

Anuja was right! i did have a surprise. hehe... but let me show off some pics from saturday first. =)

I forgot whasit called. flaming something. but it's equivilent to fish n co's seafood platter for 2.

Don & i visited Manhatten fish market at plaza singapura and the above was our dinner! mmm.... not as good as fish and co i should say. but seafood pleases me anytime.

We took a long walk to the esplanade after dinner and chanced upon the thaipusam(is it spelled like that?) procession. whee~! took loads of pictures, mostly bad cos i'm too short and kept getting blocked by people.

They supported the weight by poking pins into their flesh!

Look at that! OUCH.

Kids carry a lighter load but some of them had thick rods pierced into their tongues.

That reminded us of candy floss & marshmallows.

We managed to reach the esplanade just in time to catch the cny fireworks, but i was so blocked by some lousy plastic-looking trees. grrr! but it was still nice to catch live fireworks! oooooooh i SO love fireworks. =D

Next up is Max Brenner's! i dunno what you actually call it but i guess it's like a chocolate cafe. We had something called the suckao which sounds damn crude. and chocolate fondue~!

Suckao comes with a nice candle pot, chocolate bits and and a tiny jug of milk.

So what you do is first poor some milk into the pot like what i'm doing here...

Look how cute these little apparatus are.

Then poor in some chocolate bits and let in melt.... stir it a bit... and then... you suck! up the liquid i mean. with the cute metal spoon-stirrer-straw. poor in more chocolate to make it thicker.

Fondue came with 3 candle pots with dark chocolate, milk chocolate, and i think white chocolate in each pot, in liquid form. they were hot hot hot!

Savour the range of chocolates with tiny pieces of bread, marshmallows, strawberries and bananas.

Half-coated strawberry.

Drench your tiny marshmallows in milk chocolate whee!

It's so sinfully delicious that don almost wanted to pierce his tongue with the fork like the indians.

I love strawberries gimme more!

Here's their range of solid chocolates.

Closer view.

Buy them off the shelves!

The bar.

Ok time to go for lesson. i'll blog about my lovely valentine's day later. hope you guys had a good one too!

ps. i have no idea why the pics are so huge cos they're not supposed to. bahhhh

valentine's nite in my room?

2006-02-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry that i haven't been updating my blog. i've got a lot of things 2 say really but no time 2 type them down. and when i've finally got the time i forgot what i was gonna say.

Anyway, i've just sent a birthday wish to an ex-boyfriend who did not seem to respect what birthdays mean to me. i am truly impressed by how big-hearted i am sometimes.

I was dining at a vegetarian restaurant with family and brother-in-law's grandma on sun when i suddenly saw wilson tham walking in! waahaha! and the coincidence didn't end there. my dad actually knew his dad haha and we looked obviously amused. we both live in hougang and we both came from lousy ajc and he's my baby bear ('mortal' in the angel mortal game). whee~~ and we're both in the miscellaneous... er i mean business team for hall production. and i like to copy his line.

I also realised i can't survive on a vegetarian diet.

Don & i had a make-up valentine's date on sat since he'll be stuck at paya lebar on tues-the-day-itself. photos will be uploaded soon i promise. but he kinda asked me to stay in my room at night. i have no idea what's gonna happen. maybe nothing's gonna happen. but

Anuja says: oooooh he's gonna give you a surprise!

Desiree says: he wants you to stay in your room so that you cannot date other guys lah.

Kyle says: no lah he's gonna date other girls so he doesn't want you to go out and bump into him accidentally.

This is the kind of friends i have!

crazy week but no i did not miss you

2006-02-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

The past week has been crazy. since the start of cny.... till now. i've been crazily rushing work like mad, travelling from place to place, trying to fufill my responsibilities in choir as well as in hall production. and Some People are not helping by playing tricks around. like what wilson said before, "chu-ing all sorts of pattern with me". haha...

Blah! but my crazy week ended yesterday by babysitting some 20 school kids from Anglican High to KR for a production workshop. i introduced myself and they started calling me xiao jing ling non stop. BRATS.

Rushed over after that to send wenyan off at the airport. hmmm how should i say this. hadn't particularly been very close to her, but could relate to her well in certain issues. she's very good to talk with. wasn't veryVERY sad to see her go but when i saw some people around me started crying i could feel a little tears welling up inside my eyes. i guess crying is contagious.

Learnt a lesson over the week. saying 'i miss you' to someone you love might not make him feel happy at all. i'm never gonna say it ever again.

hu who?

2006-02-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

We went to wenyan's house for some steamboat, mahjong and gossips on tues. ms hu wenyan is leaving for australia tomorrow! everyone's going away :(

From left, top row, eunice and trudi. bottom row, me, kitwei and wenyan.

I'll never forget the time when wenyan said she should assume an angmo name since she's going to an angmo country. and because her surname is 'hu' which resembles 'who', we should call her fuck and she will be 'fuck who'? better still, her full name would be 'fuck who? wenyan'. angmos who call each other by their last names will call her 'who?'.

That's the best thing about her, not afraid to crack jokes that could tarnish her own reputation.

All the best to you girl. we'll all miss yooooooooou =)

I made a trip over to NTU today to put up some publicity posters. it's so quiet around campus. didn't see much people walking around. maybe the place is too big and the people are all spread out. sunny says NTU is like China to him, so far and everyone speaks chinese there. haha... as the saying goes, 'shuo hua yu, cool!' what.

But it feels more like a campus to me, at least. going to the arts canteen at NUS is like going to some kopitiam beside my house. NUS feels like a neighbourhood to me. no 'school' feeling.

And like i said, i feel like a part-time student. i don't feel like i'm in school everyday at all.

lunar new year

2006-01-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

HaPpY LuNaR nEw YeAr!!!

ThIs ChInEsE nEw YeAr WaS sPeNt WiThOuT mE dOiNg AnY aNy Da SaO cHu (cLeAnInG-uP). No PrEpArAtIoN. oNlY bOuGhT a NeW tOp AnD dReSs FoR tHe nEw YeAr. AnD tYpInG LiKe ThIs Is DaMn iRrItAtInG sO i ShAlL sToP now.

I was reading some zodiac forecast for the new year, for people born in the year of tiger (me).
it says:

1)There is a high chance that i may meet with an accident.
2)Monetary investments will not deliver much returns.
3)There will be a lot of distractions in my studies.
4)The road to love will be bumpy. need to be tactful. try to take it easy.

In other words, i think it means to say that the year of the dog is utterly unfortunate in every aspect.

Darn.

And i was taking cab back home the same day when the presenter was reading out 4-D results over the radio. the driver seemed unusually tensed. when the presenter reached the 1st prize.... "5 6 0 ...." the driver suddenly shouted : " 6!!" very excitedly. i was stunned by that sudden burst of exclamation. then the presenter goes "6", and the car swerved slightly for a moment. oh my gosh (refer to no. 1).

Perhaps i bring wealth to those around me since i would not be getting much myself (refer to no. 2). the taxi-uncle ended up giving me a 30-cent discount for the cab fare, to round up the figure, when he himself won a few thousand dollars. well done.

minoi minoi

2006-01-25T11:04:00.000+08:00

Oh boy i'm so busy with other stuff outside studies these days, i feel like i'm just a part-time student. tutorials? got time then do loh. i got much more pressing things to do. arghh!! how can liddat?

What i should be doing now: study and study and study and study.

What i am doing now: painting banners, selling ice cream and other chapalang, sourcing for sponsers, rushing to print and put up posters, going around publicising and promoting and selling tickets, endless meeting ---> all for hall production

Learning up songs, cracking my brain on how i should teach the songs, organising sectionals, conducting sectionals, going for practices ---> all for choir

Skiving off my duties in kr volunteers.

Stopped going for soccer trainings altogether.

Aiya... what to do. it's hard trying to juggle hall activities plus studies plus a relationship. but i'm happier juggling than having nothing in my hands at all.

I was photocopying some notes at the library with James yesterday when i picked up a cashcard crediting about $71! whoa! i was really tempted to keep it. seriously, who wouldn't? we're not kids anymore, the devil had long infested our innocent little minds.

But of cos, me being a nice girl wouldn't keep a cashcard with $71. if it's $7.10 instead, i just might.

While typing this, i'm trying to learn a Samoan song that goes minoi minoi minoi pei o se loi.
The translation of the entire song goes like this.

Move, move like an ant when you dance,
Swaying from side to side,
Dipping into rich coconut cream,
As sweet as baked fruit.

Ah, my pigeon,
Crying out to me,
I wish you could keep dancing like that,
So move, move, move my darling.

What kinda song is this huh?? meaningless as it is, quite fun to sing it still.

Did you click on the link in my last post? if you haven't, please go back and click it! everyone you HAVE to see it at least once.

photo booth

2006-01-20T15:43:00.000+08:00

If you're bored/stressed/pressured/fed up/sick/glum/depressed/weary/strained....

Click here.

It's guaranteed to relief all the above. i copied that from melody's blog. it's sooooooo funny.... :D

mai-a-hi

2006-01-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

Check this out. for ages people have been hooting along with the chicken little mai-a-hi song in an unknown alien-like language. we could have been singing vulgarities for all you know.

Well it's actually romanian. they're not vulgarities. some kind dude decided to translate the lyrics for the rest of us earthlings.

Click here for lyrics.

Gee. i never expected the song to mean anything anyway.

daily grind

2006-01-18T02:26:00.000+08:00

I noticed my little blog hasn't been about my life. they're just random thoughts. people who've been reading for a year still do not know who i am. so perhaps from now on i will start blogging about my daily grind.

Nice cool morning we have today. woke up at a freakin 7am for an ECONOMETRICS class. now doesn't that sound pro. fell asleep midway class and woke up when class ended, went back to hostel to sleep again, and woke up for lunch. went back to hall, read about samurai and the Tokugawa system. the Tokugawas who gained power in Japan since the 1600s and shaped the way Japan is today. that was the most interesting piece of information that i've read since school started. really, not being sacarstic. i like japanese studies. you'll appreciate it very much when all you've been doing in school is diffentiations and natural ln and solving equations and statistics in economics plus singapore history.

Was supposed to sell ice-cream during dinnertime but it all melted due to a faulty freezer which was SPONSORED.

MYSTIQUE HAIR STUDIO seems all out to work with us to sponsor hair-styling services for hall production. (side note: i am a BUSINESS EXECUTIVE for hall production. now doesn't that sound pro again.) yipee. nice guy, the director is. i love talking to him. maybe i'll go to him for my own hair services. it's at kovan. blk 203. see it pays to be nice.

So no ice-cream tonight. went on to paint banners and painted my hands as well. had choir comm meeting. read more Tokugawa. talked to don on the phone. read.

And here i am blogging.

Shucks i can't do it. my life's just boring. what lousy entry. i'll try to make future ones more interesting.

On a side note, i have to keep reminding myself that the ever-ready dalvir singh got a CAP of 5.0 and he's not a foreign scholar or anything like that. plus, with 4 A+ as if As are not enough. so, i'm now thinking, if he can do it so can i (in the adam khoo way). i could get 5.0 with JUST 5 As. i do not need any A+.

about me

2006-01-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

Cheeguan did one of those kind of '99 things about me' stuff in his blog. so long and tedious. seriously cheeguan, who cares whether you prefer love or lust or whether you've been kissed or not? :p

But i'm still going to copy you but i'll just select some questions that I LIKE.

LAST PERSON THAT

1. Slept in your bed: Jinling
2. Saw you cry: Don
3. Made you cry: Don
4. Went to the movies with you: Don
5. You went to the mall with: Mummy. before her was don.
6. You went to dinner with: Family. before family was don.
7. You talked on the phone: Don
8. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it: Don
9. Made you laugh: Don

All simply because it's the weekends! i really wish to spend more time with you. but erm, you know, i'm not possesive or anything. hmm. ok nevermind.

WHAT DO YOU WANT

1. What kind of job do you want? The kind with big money. really.
2. Do you want to get married? YES! who wants to marry me!

earrings (more)

2006-01-12T17:52:00.000+08:00

More and more earrings!! omg!!

These are so tiny and cute.

Kinda blurrr huh.

Looks vintage.

This was designed by me and trudi. i left look right look... the more i look at it the weirder it seems. i dunno what's wrong with this (or me).

I'm really quite boliao.

I recently stumbled upon someone's blog. she was someone i know, but not on a personal level. it was disturbing. she was describing her emotions so explicitly, i could almost feel her pain. in fact. i had felt that sort of pain before, she went through everything that i did.... and more. but i'm glad that mine's over now.

Every single day she blogged explicitly about her exasperation... her frustration... her depression... and i thought she was somehow self-mutilating by lingering around and even blogging down such emotions... But the worst part was i discovered that i was somehow involved in her self-mutilating process... i never knew.

Sorry for being kaypo, but i had to keep reading, searching to see whether further entries contained me again.

I could see that she's gradually healing now. glad for her. =)

kai xing jiu hao

2006-01-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

A friend blogged that singlehood ain't easy, it's tough. and the decision leading to it is tougher.

I personally didn't think that singlehood is tough at all. unless if you've become so used to attachedhood. but the decision leading to it sure is. not that i've experienced it before. but i could imagine. if you think it's tough, you must still love her. the decision to leave someone whom you love must be painful.

I used to feel terribly resentful. i hadn't thought of it for ages until tru reminded me again. my resentment.

I didn't understand why i didn't understand how. there wasn't any reasonable explanation. there were problems. loads of it apparently, which i knew nothing about. i felt incredibly foolish. i felt he was even more foolish. it was a silly affair. both of us were young and immature and we knew nothing about love. not to mention how to maintain a relationship.

More than a year has passed. i wouldn't say i've attained a high level of maturity but i've certainly grown wiser. it was long before i was ready to step into another relationship. undoubtedly still terrified. but i was no longer the naive little girl who thinks love is fluffy pink clouds amongst the blue sky. no longer shallow and short-sighted. (i hope. =P)

I'm beginning to understand more reasons. how you'd keep problems to yourself so as not to burden the other party. how you'd want to keep her happy in expense of your own happiness. and to that my resentment weaned. i was wrong i was foolish i was wilful i was childish i'm sorry.

But even more i hope that i can do better this time. =)

I hate feeling resentful. it felt ugly. it makes you forget the good times and dwell on the bad. over the year i had tried to disregard it but it's so hard. i'm still ugly, although not as much as before.

To a little miss pretty, kai xing jiu hao! haha... must pride yourself for having so many good friends. next time you pass by kent ridge hall don't need to miss me! can come up and look for me haha i also very lonely sometimes. if you not happy can always go and talk to 'books' (ahem) haha!

Happy 2006!

2006-01-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

Happy 2006! =D

New year's eve was a boring day. i wasn't out there playing overnight mahjong with the khakis. neither was i squeezing myself against people out there counting down. i was just, at home. with my mum. and the 2 babies. playing Stronghold 2. it was great.

Sir William is my knight in shiny armour.

Don went out with the scouts. i had to admit that i felt kinda lonely lah. aiya but then how. i didn't wanna go to joel's house (haha) to rub shoulders with strangers. towards 12am i was watching 'Hollow man' for the 3rd time at least, and i lamented at myself for being such a lame loser. right then i almost convinced myself that new year's eve is just another day. nothing special. i shall not think of it as any day more special than any day else anymore. (sigh)

Hehe then don came over at 2355 just to countdown with me. whew! suddenly new year's eve became special again!

On new year's day i was playing Stronghold again. and on every new year's day i had to remind myself that school is starting soon. bleh! i guess it's time to start getting used to resuming our own busy lives and not having him around now.

relationships

2005-12-31T01:57:00.000+08:00

Here am i 3am in the morning, talking about relationships with trudi. trudi is very wise. she says relationships depend on how it started and how you handle it.

I think it all depends on compatibility. no matter how lousy your personality is, or how unintelligent your way of handling your relationship is.... it will be good as long as the other party accepts you the way you are. i often find myself thinking oh man this kinda 'lan ren' (lousy person) also got people want ah. of cos got.

I'm always trying to be myself. but i'm finding it increasingly difficult not to act in the way that could be more favourable. the moment my actions betray my emotions, i feel guilty that i'm not presenting the real me and you'll never know and like who i really am. but on the other hand, i'd rather you adore the pretended jinling than to dislike the real her.

*music plays who is that girl i see staring straight back at me... why is my reflection someone i don't knowwwwwwww

Anyway, as we were saying... relationships are so chim. the last statement i made to tru was 'i shall not be too emotionally dependent on him', before she *poofed behind her screen. i think i'm being too careful in not to make the same mistakes i've made before. i worry and agonise myself all the time. it's so difficult. at one time i decided that i'll not have any expectations of the relationship at all in case i'll get disappointed... is that correct? but what's a serious relationship without expectations?

A mysterious friend of mine complains about every single aspect of her boyfriend's life. she gets lonely and pissed when he doesn't reply her smses within a minute's time.

That's the last thing i want to happen to me.

Tru remains disappeared. where are you??? i shall go sleep first.

for charity

2005-12-30T00:52:00.000+08:00

I'm a bad girl. i promised myself that i'll blog soon. but im just a lousy procrastinator. boohoo. it's not that i have nothing to blog about. i do have lots but i'm just LAZY. i'm a slug. i've got so many photos to upload now!! maybe someday i'll upload alllllll at one time and flood this blog with photos. waha.

So without any photos, i wanna mention about respect today. i suddenly thought of this person, or some persons, whom i've treated with respect in circumstances that him/her did not do so. and when i look back and ask myself why, i thought that maybe i contained such high fancy for that person that i would treat him/her well regardless. but maybe more often than not, i was just reluctant to create even more unpleasant feelings between us. maybe someday she/she/they will come to repent... and regret how shabbily he/she/they have been treating me and all of us will live happily ever after. how lovely it would be.

Just a few days ago i was waiting for tru at orchard mrt station and most people would know that it's a very unpleasant place to hang around, unless if you are lonely and like to get hounded by credit card promoters or donation seekers or people who pretend to be discovering pretty faces. i was approached by a decently dressed man after 10 seconds of waiting and it went like this:

" Hi are you waiting for someone? i'm from [insert charity organisation's name]. we are blessed with good health and good looks like you. but how would you feel if you are poor and left alone? sad right? i know you are a kind person. [insert charity organisation] helps [insert receivee] who are [inserts dire situations]. your kind contribution of $10 will help them in a lot of ways. "

Then pause. guy suddenly looked at me. i think i was supposed to respond at this point of time. so i said:

" sorry i'm not interested. "

Then guy gave me a super dramatic "why?!?!" as though the survival of the entire organisation depends on my $10. what do you mean WHY?!?!? i've done my part in paying attention to your little speech which definitely did not impress me. obviously if i 'contributed' $10 to any tom's harry dick i'd be better off in one of their 'organisations'. i can't be bothered to talk any further. Forever21 was beckoning me.

" erm i'm not interested." without looking a wee bit guilty.

The pathetic pest threw a :" oh so you're not interested in helping people. ok." and turned 90 degrees around immediately to walk away. how about " thanks for listening?" the sacarsm in his voice! the abruptness in his turn! i could swear that he earns his dough in doing this.

I was supposed to talk about respect but here's a side track...

Signs that a guy is working part/full-time seeking cash donations:

1) makes you feel bad about not contributing, as though you don't have a heart. you feel pressured to donate. i can never forget the time when a lady read out her whole truckload of memorised crap, asked jianning for her name, wrote down '$10' beside it and expect her to pay up.
2) gets pissed/belittles you when you finally decide not to contribute.
3) no sincerity in explaining and publicising for the charity organisation as focus is to make you feel like a villian.

Of cos, not saying that everyone who earns commission doing this are like that. and also not implying that this system of paying you accordingly to the amount of donations you manage to raise, is wrong. afterall charitable organisations are indeed allowed a small proportion of operational cost.

But i simply cannot stand people who do not have a little RESPECT towards the organistion that they work for. all you care about is the commission right? best is to force more people to donate so that you can earn more money right? it's for charity (who cares what it does) so you better donate or you'll burn in hell.

Very unpleasant experiences.

I guess cash donations is the easiest way out for people who wants to 'do some good'. ji dian de. to counter the usual 'naughty' things they've done in life. and nowadays you'll encounter increasingly more chances of your easy way out. but it's so meaningless.

I didn't feel a least bit guilty at all when that miserable guy in the mrt station, hateful of those who refused to 'help others', played me down. i'm not a dumb sucker.

merry christmas!

2005-12-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

Merry merry merry merry christmas!

Apologies for not blogging for sucha long time. heehee... due to the lack of time of effort of energy and of brains. but here's a merry christmas to one and all! had a fabulous christmas this year... went for volunteering at NUH, caroling, had the bestest christmas eve, christmas gathering with relatives, get together with 13/03 etc... and block party coming up. whew! luckily got no homework this time.

Aiya my arm very tired now tomorrow then blog lah haha... merry christmas! muacks

hand-made earrings!

2005-12-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

Look! this is the first ever pair of earrings that i designed and made myself. muahaha. so colourful. thought it looks like a toy. workmanship is poor i admit. eh but whaddya expect. my virgin hand-made earrings ok. dun praypray.

=D

My dream man

2005-12-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

Here's a list of what my dream guy should be like.

1) at least 1.7m of height
2) big soulful eyes
3) tender lips
4) good build
5) broad chest
6) dark skin
7) cute dimple
8) cute
9) clean short hair
10) clean
11) relatively good complexion with no breakouts too visible
12) intelligent
13) knowledgable
14) tough
15) brave
16) sensitive
17) sweet
18) filial
19) helpful
20) reads a lot
21) sings mai-a-hi along with me
22) buys things like creative zen for me
23) watches whatever movie i wanna watch
24) feeds me with lotsa good food
25) listens to me bitch
26) smells like a wild boar
27) has jumped out of a plane (with a parachute of course)
28) controls a whole damn plane
29) has definite goals in life
30) extremely huggable

Opps. too much details. very difficult to fit all of the above requirements already. but if never fit all 30 i don't want ok. if you think you fit the bill please drop me a call for a date right now. (it doesn't matter if you resemble a malay. wahahhahah. ahem. sorry, internal joke.)

issues

2005-12-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i find that i've got a problem with telling people the difficulties i'm facing with them straight in their faces. mainly because i don't want to be seen as a person full of issues and difficult to please. well maybe i AM difficult to please. but that'll not be something i'm proud to show. i think i'm just spoilt.

I shall just go there by the corner and sulk alone.

What Is Wrong With Me

2005-12-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

Ok everybody come chant with me.
What Is Wrong With Me???

Seriously What Is Wrong With Me? i have a nagging feeling that something is wrong with me but i can't exactly point out what. i don't feel right in everything i do. maybe's just pms. yup must be. i should stop pondering on this issue excessively before it gets out of hand. but What Is Wrong With Me has become an interesting trivia question to bra and jian.

¤\[¤ says:
wats wrong with u?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
i dunno
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
thats y im asking
¤\[¤ says:
as in
¤\[¤ says:
wat evoked the qn
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
oh cos i feel there's sth wrong
¤\[¤ says:
with?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
me?
¤\[¤ says:
as in
¤\[¤ says:
physically?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
i dunno
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
what is wrong with me?
¤\[¤ says:
erm...the fact tat u're asking a qn liddat when theres nothing wrong?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
hmmm no thats not What Is Wrong With Me
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
try again
¤\[¤ says:
hmm
¤\[¤ says:
u are in love?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
no thats not What Is Wrong With Me
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
u have one more chance
¤\[¤ says:
erm...u are hungry?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
orh... maybe
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
its late alr i shld b hungry
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
but i ate chips juz now
¤\[¤ says:
hmmm
¤\[¤ says:
so...
¤\[¤ says:
does tat mean im correcT?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
erm
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
no
¤\[¤ says:
oh...
¤\[¤ says:
darn
¤\[¤ says:
so...
¤\[¤ says:
wats wrong with u?
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
oh...
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
What Is Wrong With Me
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
i dunno
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
arent u supposed 2 guess?
¤\[¤ says:
hmmm
¤\[¤ says:
but i ran out of chances...
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
oh ya
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
u lose
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
gua gua gua

..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
wads wrong wif u
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
oh i dunno
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
thats y im asking
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
haha
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
i noe!
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
what?
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
dun tell u
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
oh no u muz tell
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
quick tell

You have just sent a Nudge!

..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
haha
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
u miss me
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
i miss u n that's What Is Wrong With Me??
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
then u keep thinking of me lor
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
ya thats wrong
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
then u cha fan bu si
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
dat is wrong wif u
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
oh so What Is Wrong With Me is tt i cha fan bu si
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
not cos i miss u
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
its linked
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
but i eat a lot of fan although i nv drink cha
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
u're wrong
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
try again
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
half correct
{LingS} ~ what is wrong with me says:
bu suan
..+*b3nEa+h +He Pae MoOni9Ht*+.. sOmE tHiNgS need not bE uNdErStOoD.. some reasons nEeD nOt be explained.. says:
suan le

Wish you were here with me right now.

pessimistically

2005-12-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

I realise i'm still a pessimist. i'm still the person lacking of confidence a year ago. bleh.

dreams

2005-12-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

I often have extremely queer dreams which could still be deeply etched to my memory long after i've woken up. dreams which i constantly question their significance, or lack of.

Like more than a year ago i dreamt of bra dying in an accident. and saw don drowning in a newspaper.(?) or the time i was left alone in an ice-skating rink. and my primary school on fire.till now i could still recount the dreams and even draw out an image. when i was young i often dreamt of myself running away from a bad guy.

Last night i had this reeeeally weird dream. but i could only remember bits and pieces of it. i dreamt that my mum could drive, and she drove me all the way to hall where i had to cook my own food. and the only kinda food available were mushrooms. then change scene, i'm in ntu and i saw jian sok laoda and lotsa ntu people. i was hanging around in their hostel rooms. somehow i became some sorta super athlete who could cross the length of an entire standard track with just 2 large strides.

Then came the most vivid part. i was very ill and only had a few days to live, while he was still away. the day which i somehow was supposed to die was the day that he's supposed to come home. i got so afraid that i wouldn't be able so see him before i die. i was really scared. it felt so real. i realised i am so not ready to die yet. i wasn't willing to give up all that i hold so dear in the world... it was a dreary kinda feeling... and reluctance...

That was exactly how i felt when come to know about my pending death.

I saw him come back afterall... he never knew that i was ill, and i got snubbed. it was the most horrible feeling in the world...........

And i woke up before i 'died'.

That was a truly terribly terrifying dream.

picture hosting

2005-11-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

mypicgallery is a F*CKING piece of SHAT!

Sorry for being vulgar. s'cuse me but i'm highly distraught here. *takes a deep breathe. @#$%^&*(*&^%$# whatttt the hell do they they think they're doing!?!?! there they WERE telling people that they provide FREE hosting of pictures and they next moment when you log in, your account with all your lifetime of precious photos become 'EXPIRED'.

And when i frantically click 'restore my pictures', this disgusting message stares right back at me:
If you've received an "Account Expired" notification, please note that your images have not been lost. To maintain our operations it has been necessary to convert to a subscription-based service. You may restore service and recover your images by taking advantage of a free three-day trial subscription below. We greatly apologize if this causes you any inconvenience.

Important note: this is done without a warning. the least they could do was to send me an email to tell about the pending expiration so as to let me DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, which is obviously what they DO NOT WANT US TO DO.

<insert all synonyms for 'f*cking piece of shat>

You need hellava apology to appease my buaysong-ness. you are forcing me to squeeze out my hard-saved $$$ to restore my own pictures back?!? zhe shi she me shi jie???

Ladies and gentlemen boys and girls. i shall not say that they are deploying tricks to con us little people into subscribing to their services. neither am i saying that they are devious, calculating, crafty, crooked, deceitful, dishonorable, double-dealing, or scheming. i'm am not conveying a message that YOU SHOULDN'T ENCOURAGE SUCH DECEITFUL OPERATION TO CONTINUE.

I mean, unlimited bandwith and storage is good afterall. but for such a cheapo like me i think i shall stick to free hosting that provides you fantastic nitty gritty stuff like galleries all the same. and if i ever run out of storage space i could just create multiple accounts.... i mean give up one mudpie to pay for storage. =)

Side note: by the way i actually still store my pictures somewhere else lah. still not so bad. but what if i hadn't? *shudders

Randomly

2005-11-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

Randomly

1) Maybe Dumbledore is possessed. just like what they thought happened to Emily Rose. it must be that piece of thread they tie around his beard. hmmm.....

2) I've always noticed that asians living in the west have hair that is extra black and glossy. just like cho chang. she's so pretty. maybe cos all the angmos already have coloured hair and they wanna be different and retain their black. like how asians in asia have black hair and some colour their hair sorely to be different.

3) I totally have no recollection of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire the book that i've read years ago. nope not even the part where the reporter was supposed to be a bug. it again reminds me that i have amnesia. sorry.

4) My sister stepped on a snail. she says it feels crunchy.

5) I moved (myself and my laptop) home.

6) I'm blogging this at home with my lappie.

7) No i don't have wireless. apparently a few lucky dudes living near me has. so i erm... shared... erm... it doesn't make that dude pay more or run slower right?

8) But my room has no signal so i had to use this in the dining room/kitchen.

9) I'm kinda bored right now.

10) I miss you! youyouyouyouyouyouyouyou
youyouyouyouyouyouyouyouyouyouyouyou

sex vs.sexuality

2005-11-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

No more exams! i think i shall start eating junk food again.
Note to my er zi: wahaha i don't need to blog what i study cos no need to study anymore! throw away econs!

Question: Why do sociologists want to differentiate between gender and sexuality? [?m]
I talked about: from the sociological point of view, sexuality is a biological concept determined on the basis of primary sex characteristics. gender has social consequences.

But in fact, it is SEX that is a biological concept determined on the basis of primary sex characteristics, according to the textbook. not sexuality. question: so is sexuality=sex??? weiguang says i'm wrong. he says sexuality is your sexual orientation, whether you wanna be straight or gay or whatever.

From www.dictionary.com, sexuality is

1. The condition of being characterized and distinguished by sex.
2. Concern with or interest in sexual activity.
3. Sexual character or potency.

If it is 1. The condition of being characterized and distinguished by sex. , then sexuality is The condition of being characterized and distinguished by a biological concept determined on the basis of primary sex characteristics. then i'm correct what! if you are male, society would expect you to be masculine but no you could be a sissy.

But if it is 2. Concern with or interest in sexual activity. do i write about how your level of interest in sexual activities differs from that of society's expectations? ewww....

So if it is 3. Sexual character or potency. , it matches with what weiguang said. but what you mean potency?? what is the socially normal level of potency? hur? no link!

Therefore i insist that i'm right ok. hmmph. but if i fail my sociaology paper you'll know why.

I recently cut my hair! with bangs. with a lot of bangs. ee ling says i look like chinadoll. hmmph she must be exaggerating. i thought i merely look a bit more geekish. chenchen says i look younger. i think she means more kiddish. gina.

Anyway people have been asking me this question a lot:" eh you cut your hair ah?" duh. but it's ok. i understand that people just wanna make conversation, so i often refrain from making wisecracks like:" no it dropped."

There was once i tried to make conversation with this guy from hall who shaved his head.

Me: eh you shaved ah?
Him: huh? no i didn't.
After 2 seconds.....
He touched his head...
Him: GASP! oh no i did!!!

Wahaha.... way to go i thought that was damn cute! =D

deprived of food

2005-11-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

I am so DEPRIVED!!!

Of FOOD!!

Here i am studying for exams and i'm not allowed to eat chips/fries/chocolates/sweets/ICECREAM/cold drinks WHAT IS THIS???? how can??? no wonder i couldn't do well for my sociology paper today. i just couldn't remember all the important definitions and points. why differentiate between sexuality and gender? huh?!? i can't remember!! i've been deprived of FOOD that's why!!

I'm very sad you know. never in my life have i been so deprived of food.

That's all. i have got nothing else to say. no food i'm very stressed.

Oh no i've got something else to say. i'm hooked onto the ma-i-a-hi ma-i-a-haha song. there's this funny player in my head that keeps playing this song. *shakes brain violently.

Thus i can't get enough of this. it's what you see on the not-so-big plasma screen in mac's nowadays.

http://www.disney.it/Film/movies/chickenlittle/index.html

Laugh! hahaha. ok bye.

greatest fear of the ceiling fan + reflections

2005-11-15T16:42:00.000+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog regularly lately. life for me these days has been

1) being sick
2) at home
3) playing with my nephews
4) being a ditzy little girl
5) studying for my finals

I wouldn't say 'mugging' for my finals. i haven't really been mugging. maybe's cos i'm sick and i'm not in the mood to mug. or maybe's cos i'm home and home has too many distractions like nephews and such. in any case... this is the first time that i'm not seriously mugging for finals. i'm seriously in trouble and since i'm aware of that i should seriously start mugging now. arghharghharghh.

Today's tuesdays and i'm back in hall. hopefully will be able to study more efficiently. =) oh but i always have this fear when i'm in my hostel room. i'm constantly worried that the ceiling fan will drop on my head. it's really a very relevant fear you know. the fan doesn't look 100% attached to the ceiling at all and as it spins it sways very slightly.

Remember we had ceiling fans too back in the days when we were in school? people always get quite worried that the fans will drop on their heads too, although it never happened. i remember an intelligent friend of mine used to say that if you are sitting directly below the fan you're safe cos if the fan really drops, it'll spin to somewhere else and drop there, and not directly below. and being as intelligent as she is, i used to feel very insured sitting directly below a swaying fan.

But in this case my room is so damn small, wherever it spins to i'll sure kena.

I recently encountered a person's blog which got my big brain ticking. she was wondering if her boyfriend still keeps in contact with his ex, whom she addresses as 'that bitch'. i thought woah what did she do to you. but she didn't really elaborate on that.

Assuming that his ex is just a regular ex, why wouldn't she want her boyfriend to contact her anymore?

How much does it reflect on a guy who decides to cut off all contacts with a girl whom he used to care and love deeply and vice versa?

A lot.... badly.

When i encounter such sad people around it makes me reflect upon myself.

Hmmm my entry today has quite a substantial length. makes up for the lag these days. and someone/s kept coming to my blog by searching this particular name: mingui. haha... and i always wonder if it's the man himself, looking to see what others are blogging about him.

Other prominent keywords that people have searched for in blogs, which led them to my blog: rag chair, christina kang, cheeguan, jianning, huatz, a poem for pearline, pride soundtrack, kent ridge, eguanas, kr e blk... and loads more.

On a last note, if you're interested in reading what others have to say about you in their blogs as well, you could go to a search engine, limit the search to 'blogspot.com' only (the most popular host for blogs) and search your name. alternatively, you could go technorati.com because apparently it'll only bring you results of blogs particularly. the most popular search engine that people use to find names on my blog would be technorati and msn search. yeah. go on.

ear infection

2005-11-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

Here's an addition to my ailment: EAR INFECTION. you know, that kind when the inside of your ear becomes red and it becomes blocked and you can't hear in a ear and you feel damn giddy like the world is spinning and you can't study even though your exams is DAYS AWAY.

That's how i'm feeling now. baH!

Anyway, i attended my cousin's wedding last sunday and made a few interesting observations:

1) I like white dresses, i really do.

2) Relatives gulping down the shark's fin in approximately 10 seconds before frantically helping themselves (and their children) to a second serving.

3) My uncle got tipsy and started to giggle like a shy boy.

4) A couple of men got far more than tipsy and started shouting some vulgarities about genitals. they were stumbling around the ballroom and trying to get into fights with anybody who tried to help them up. gosh this is how throw face can. this is probably your friend's/family's happiest day in his/her life and here you are making a fool of yourself and ruining their beautiful day! go settle your messed up life somewhere else and eat some worms dude. UNGLAM.

5) Weddings are always so sweet, no matter how simple they get... to declare that you wanna spend the rest of your life with the person you love more than yourself.............
i wanna get married too!!
ps. ahem i'm not implying anything ya... just in case.

I feel like eating sheare's nuggets now. opps. side track. sighs... i feel so deprived of good food!!! helP!! i'm sick of lousy kr food and swallowing pills and cough mixture.

Sorry for being kinda anti-social these days. sick means crankiness and lousy blogging as well as you can see from here.

Muacks x100 to pearline here! she's so sweet to accompany me all the way to ginza to visit the doctor! haha... i love pearline!

Muacks x100 to a certain pilot too. i love my pilot. :P

terrible time

2005-11-03T11:15:00.000+08:00

I feel terrible. arghh. arghharghharghh. maybe i really have dengue!! maybe i have SARS!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!!

Whining?? i have the absolute right to whine! how would you feel if you
1) have persistant fever
2) have persistant cough
3) have persistant muscle aches
4) have your period
5) have oral exam in 6 days
6) have final sem exams in 16 days
7) choke on a couple of paracetamols?????

Can it get any worse than this?? somebody sayang me.... :(

I decided to help hongye's publicity manager publicise a bit:

EVER WANTED TO GO ON A DATE WITH OUT RESIDENT SUPERSTAR WONGHONGYE??? NOW'S UR CHANCE!!!! We have EXCLUSIVELY secured a not-to-be-missed date for you to watch OCEAN OU DE YANG's performancewith HONGYE ALONE. U see, poor Hongye has 2 tickets but NO ONE TO WATCH WITH. So, as his 2nd floor buddies, we highly encourage all female E Blockers not to pass on this chance. Interested applicants please reply this message and include your Name, Room Number, and ONE reason why u think u should be chosen. Only one vacancy is avaliable so please reply ASAP. So far, Mr Hongye has only revealed that the concert will be on thurs (3/11), further details would be released to the shortlisted candidates by us from 10am. We will guarantee u an unforgettable evening with him ( after-date activties are conducted atyour own discretion ).

Ps: THIS IS NOT A HOAX

Additional information as provided by ms christina kang:
"He's got a fan club of his own!He's so Zhai in everything from takraw to soccer to handball. Lets not forget his irresistable smile and charming personality. Sigh... if only all guys are like him.... *dreamy eyed* "

Yeah so apply early if interested. me? no lah i'm in teckie's fan club already.

coughcoughcough

2005-11-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

I'm sick AGAIN! i hate being sick. why am i always sick. whywhywhywhywhywhy... *thunder roars.

I've been fevering and coughing for the past few days and from experience, my cough would be following me for quite some time. damnit!

Bah. thanks to the public holidays and pending end of the semester, i've only got 1 lesson the entire week! ain't that cool? whee! slack shit!

Here's an update to the activities i've joined in school (hall, rather):
1) choir sectional leader
2) girls' soccer recreational team
3) hall production business executive (department not yet known)
4) KR volunteers committee

Not a lot, really. you should see what the others are up to. (think dance + choir + acapella + swimming + 2 other sports etc or touch rug + handball + soccer + tennis + block committee... whew.. pure admiration for them... oh and don't forget + studies)

I feel like talking about 'The Myth' all of a sudden. watched it quite sometime ago. i personally think that it's a damn lousy show. i hate the distortion of facts of history & glamorizing them into movies. at least you should do it tastefully. the Qing emperor's tomb suspended in some lousy cave by some funny stones with people living inside who drank the elixir or life? i mean, c'mon man.....

But nevertheless, i enjoyed the show thoroughly... cos i had good company! ;)

tough being a princess

2005-10-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

Hi! i've been blogging so infrequently that i think people have quit visiting. what, you think i so free like wilson??? heehee... kidding... wilson is a busy man...

Our E block door gifts are finally ready!! woohoo! so cutsy ootsy!

Here's a closer view of it...

Can you see the two words 'gong zhu'? (meaning princess) whee~ i'm a princess!! i SNIGGLE at those ditsy little girls still trapped in their childhood who calls themselves princesses (that's excluding having a 'princess' door hanger) but look carefully!! i didn't call myself a PRINCESS! it's pearline's handwriting ok...

Haha! i'm a princess recognized by her people! ok at least by pearline. but anyway... i am Jin Ling gong zhu! wahahaha....

What. you think princess very easy to be isit. wah lau eh do you know how much hardship & trauma princesses have to suffer from? look at princess diana... the most beautiful & kind princess in the world... had to end her life in such a tragedy. look at cinderella! tortured by her evil stepsisters and stepmother, got forced to do housework and sleep beside the cinder and worst of all, be called an ash girl!! tsktsk. so poor thing... aurora had to get pricked by a needle and sleep for 100 years??? snow white had to suffer the trauma of nearly getting murdered + wilderness of the forest + the thoughts of the 7 dwarfs being gay + eating a lousy apple and terminating respiration for a while.

need i say more???

*Sweats. so you see... it's tough being a princess...

By the way do i resemble eeyore in any way? haha... cos my gummibear gave me this:

From charlie

And my baby bear gave me this:

From wilson

during the revelation of carebear gummibears! it's the angel mortal game where the angel is called a carebear/gummibear and the mortal is a babybear. heehees... funny that both of my bears are people that i talk quite a lot to in the first place already...

We went to Jalan Asia recently.

The people were so small that my slipper could easily flatten 5 of them at one go. splatt!

They have lots of colourful umbrellas.

i liked their trishaw a lot.

i think i look extremely fat here. if you have never seen jinling fat before, heres.

What a lovely place.

I love the esplanade. don't you?

a grim tale

2005-10-23T14:33:00.000+08:00

Let me retell a horrendous story that desiree told us one fine day. it made Por sad and cry. it was a grim story about an ill-fated hamster.

It happened that she has a friend who ownED a nice hamster. being a kind owner she is, she understands the value of freedom of roaming so her hamster is allowed to run around in the house. now from here onwards i'll try to present the story in the way desiree presented it to us.

"Her brother came into the room and accidentally stepped on the hamster's whiskers. it tried to run away but TORE(said in a loud voice) out his entire face with the whiskers instead. then it just shrivelled in pain and died."

Urgh. how gruesome. till this time the great story-teller has told the story at least 3 times and that hasn't dampen her enthusiasm any bit.

Don argued that it doesn't make sense. i mean, how could you tear your face out just like that? aren't the whiskers connected to the follicles like hair? and how could a little hamster have so much strength to tear out the entire face? i could see that this guy has serious doubt in the truth of this grim tale.

I dunno. i think the idea is just plain gross. maybe someone could help me find out how this could happen and educate me about it.

very random

2005-10-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

Well i was about to do my econs tutorial when i have the sudden urge to blog. you see this happens when you become a frequent blogger. you feel the sudden queasiness when you haven't been blogging for some time. i felt like i had to blog in case someone somewhere out there is eagerly anticipating my next entry. although as usual i've got no inspiration or whatsoever regarding the subject to blog about. my life is boring you see. the exciting bits might get too exciting such that some people might get cardiac arrest (as if).

Aiya. what the hell. let's just blog about my random thoughts since i last blogged.

Took neoprints for the nth time. think it's the chioest neoprint i've ever taken though. muacks i love it sooo much but i shan't show it to people cos i know they'll say i look radically different on photos compared to the real person and the one in the photo looked damn chio and the real person looks like ahem. "IS THAT YOU??" no it's not i just got my twin sister to replace me in photos cos she looks chio and i don't. boohoo.

My jap is lousy indeed. why you need to get above 50/60 to reach a B (!!) and i only got like 37. freakin hell. i need to mug hard for jap. and sociology too. and e lang too. and econs too. and food safety and security too. soodesune.

Xiaxue's blog is so beautiful now. i'm sure no one does not know who's xiaxue. she's simply at blogspot.com but i shan't link her here. anyway, she was explaning about how normal people are fully authorised to use the toilet cubicles for the handicapped. honestly, i haven't thought of it as a controversy before cos i simply assumed that... you wanna use ah. then use loh. i don't see handicapped people around anyway. but i myself don't usually do that cos i just felt that... it's not for my use. in case someone who genuinely needed one comes by. it's not a big issue really. it's just whether you wanna wait a little bit longer to pee. i think xiaxue is trying to create a social upheaval. the government didn't create spacious cubicles for a battle of handicapped vs non handicapped.

People like nanny charlie uncle james cheeko desiree all call me silly girl. i'm that silly meh? no what. where got. today food monster fell down and bruised her kness. ouch! hope she gets well soon. if not she'll miss her daily trip to supper.

all you need is love

2005-10-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE

Apparently some people haven't been too agreeable to the title of my blog, with one of them even resorted to telling me that :" Love is not enough." in my face.

Maybe sometimes you can make life a little easier by faking ignorance. psycho yourself that everything would be good and you'll be fine. i'll be fine i'll be fine i'll be fine. yup. hence to see things from an optimistic point of view.... all you need is love. =)

Why do you think we frequently yearn to go back to the days when we were all young and innocent and protected from the knowledge that the world isn't perfect? wouldn't it be nice if we'd all be able to move on from our experiences and pain without a slightest concern?

The transition from a child to an adult is obviously not an easy one. how many heartbreaks do we need to go through before we can sit back and take things easier?

Having said that, i'm definitely not a person who can take all of my affairs with a pinch of salt. (even if you think i seem to be so). i'm constantly worrying agnotizing struggling tomenting tearing grueling bitching and thus in order to save myself from hell i tend to like to shut down sometimes and zi qi qi ren (bluff myself bluff others). so far i think it works fine.

I'm happy! really. =)

And in view of my 2nd english language test at 8am again, let me give you some Food For Thought:

Let's face it,
English is a crazy language.
There is no egg in the eggplant
No ham in the hamburger
And neither pine or apple in the pineapple.
English muffins were not invented in England
French fries were not invented in France.

We sometimes take English for granted
But if we examine its paradoxes we find that
Quicksand takes you down slowly
Boxing rings are square
And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

If writers write, how come fingers don't fing?
If the pural of tooth is teeth
Shouldn't the pural of phone booth be phone beeth?
If the teacher taught,
Why didn't the preacher praught?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables
What the heck does a humanitarian eat!?
Why do people recite at a play
Yet play at a recital?
Park on driveways and
Drive on parkways?

How can the weather be as hot as hell one day
And as cold as hell on another?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy
Of a language where a house can burn up as
It burns down,
In which you fill in a form
By filling it out
And a bell is only heard once it goes!

English was invented by people, not computers
And it reflects the creativity of the human race
(Which of course isn't a race at all).
That is why
When the stars are out they are visible
But when the lights are out they are invisible.
And why it is that when i wind up my watch
It starts
But when i wind up this poem
It ends.

Richard Lederer

Shit game

2005-10-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

Wei teck gave me this link to help me 'destress'.

Somehow felt that the more i play the more stressed i get cos i'm afraid to kena shit on my screen.

Sounds interesting? click here ---> Shit game

Ah zek scored a 89! the ultimate shitmaster!! *giggles

Crazy don is so drunk still dare to talk to me... ha! stupid idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

keys to my heart?

2005-10-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Like wilson said, zhun boh? Teeheehee

decisions

2005-10-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

Weekend is here again! weekends always mean zero work done. but it's ok. just have fun and slog my ass out on weekdays.

Decisions decisions desicions. life is all about making decisions. decisions that could affect not only me but many others around as well. very carefully i think about every little decision i have to make each day. too careful, i might say sometimes. no matter how careful i am, i could never foresee the events chance has in store for me. nor am i able to manipulate them.

No one could see the internal struggle i face each day beneath my heeheehahas. but anyhow... right now i am very tightly...........

........*crossing my fingers =)
........*hoping that everything would be good
........*praying that we would be fine
........*desiring the world to be all bright and beautiful again!

And i'm free from my illness now!! special gratitude to:

Charlie for his flu tea and panadol
Pearline for her paracetamol
Ah zek for his porridge and herbal tea
PLUS don wilson anuja wenyan bra etcetcetc for your much appreciated care & concern :)
cos it totally SUX to be ill and away from home.

Oh and jiayou to poor cheeguan who's still stuck in poor ajc. yes you should have stopped coming online long ago haha but anyhow... jiayou~~~~~~~! to the rest of the poor juniors too. ;)

ps. when i said 'don't be sad i'm not sad cos it'll always be like that.' i'm actually really sad lah. just trying to sound brave. bah. ya but anyway don't be sad, be happy!!!!! v(^-^)v

ill (2nd day)

2005-10-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

I was still feeling drowsy with illness and sick with work+ tests when don called from camp. thanks for reminding me about dengue fever man. made me feel so much better. :s

And i've got a nice-looking bruise on my left shoulder from being hit by a SOFT(haha)BALL.

Yeah i know it should be common and i should be prepared. but wah lau eh. at least gimme some words of comfort can? not as if i deserved it. sobs.

I feel so NOT comforted. :'(

Nevermind.

We had culture night! whee! it was fantastic! sensational! marvelous! superb!(like what the e-blockers would say, but somehow i don't take special liking to that word).

KR choir... some idiot took a candid shot =p :

When we were ready, we look like this:

The Sopranos. *shrills *glass breaks *kidding

The amazing 3rd floor angels! *beams. we are just so wonderful. yet mingui vowed never to step in. tsktsk. stupid mingui. hahaha... love is all you need.

grace, sherrilyn, siewtze, desiree, me, pearline.

4 4th floor boys. do you see derek? he is NUS mr elegant! woots! for real ok. no joke.

derek, willian, robin, rongren.

pearline, wilson, me

dearie pearline & i!

Finally........... E block! =)

ill

2005-10-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

I AM SICK (as in physically ill).

DO NOT disturb.

DO NOT take my broom without asking. don't think that i leave my broom outside means you can take it and use whenever you like. and leave so much hair on my broom somemore. just like how you leave uncleaned utensils around the kitchenette. DO NOT think i dunno.

DO NOT anyhow spread rumours. (or people's private matters) you lousy people corroding the society.

Thanks. Have a nice day!

ugly feet

2005-09-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

Wilson asked me to update my blog. but i don't have much to say nowadays. but anyhow i'll just post something. i figured that i'll think of something to blog about along the way....

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I wanna talk about my feet. i think they're hideous. maybe it's genetic. maybe it's cos i play too much sports (teehee). maybe i sing too much. maybe cos i never study for my GEM. maybe cos i don't like brinjals. whatever the case is, why can't i have nice slim & smooth feet with healthy and glowy nails like this:

the hands also so nice.

Jealous!!!

I'm very bothered about my ugly feet now. see lah! people aften neglect their feet! so important! both of them. they support your entire weight! all ** kg of it. you kick/jump/walk/run/dance and make them go through all the shit and you never take care of them! how can??! aiyo....

Come, after some extensive research, lemme tell you what your feet absolutely hates:

1. They don't like the nails to be cut too short. This is a good way to encourage ingrown toenails. Be sure to cut them straight across.

2. Toenails don't like to be stained yellow. That is exactly what happens when you don't use a protective basecoat before applying a dark color.

3. If you are going to remove polish, don't use a tissue. It just doesn't work and usually makes a mess. Try both and see for yourself.

4. They really don't like it when they are polished and then forgotten for weeks on end.
Letting polished nails grow out along with the polish... looks horrible.

5. Unkempt cuticles... not pretty with sandals.

6. Pushing them into pointy toed shoes. They hate that the most!

7. Toes also don't like bunions. Your big toe is the target if it is rubbed against your shoe on a regular basis.

8. Plain and simple... toes don't like to be ignored. Toes love to be pampered. A good foot massage on a regular basis is a good way to get back into their good graces!

TA DAAA~!

Not difficult right. but all of the above stated don't apply to me leh. so how???

No fret! i know the exact thing that i need. a luxurious PEDICURE! (woohoo!)

Based on my reliable research, here's how:

1. Before you go to bed, apply a generous amount of petrolem jelly and massage into your feet. Place a pair of socks over the jelly and leave them on all night.

2. This might take a few nights of TLC, so don't stop until your feet are soft and silky.

3. Now turn your attention to your toes. To soften the cuticles, soak your feet in warm water for 15 minutes.

4. Dry your feet with a big, fluffy towel and then apply some lotion to your feet. They can never be too soft.

5. Do your nails need clipping? If they do, clip and then use an emery board to smooth any rough edges.

6. Gently push back the cuticles. And I do mean gently if you haven't done it in a while.

7. Moisten a cotton ball and rub over the toenail. This will remove any oily residue from the lotions used.

8. Now you can paint your toenails. If you are looking for a pedicure that lasts, start off with a basecoat, followed by your favorite polish and then finish with a top coat to seal it in.

9. Give your polish time to dry. Most people skip this step. It might feel dry to the touch, but polish takes a good fifteen minutes to thoroughly dry.

TA DAA DAA~!

So much work right! aiyo... just for the perfect silky feet. sigh! maybe i'll just go to some funky-looking nail shop and plead them to save my poor rejected feet. could be cheaper than purchasing tubs of petroleum jelly and lotion.

SO the conclusion of the day is to STOP ABUSE FEET. it's for a good cause. unless if you want your feet to look like this:

Don't believe you try lah!

changi village adventure

2005-09-25T02:17:00.000+08:00

Whee~! came back from joel's surprise birthday party which his MUM organised for him. how cool is that. you're 19 and your MUM calls up all your friends to give you a surprise. i want a mum like that too. in fact, i want my son to be like joel. he's sucha mummy's boy. i like. i want my boy to ask:" mummy where're you going?" everytime when i'm going out even when he's 19.
and he'll buy me precious moments all the time.

Went out for supper with 6 other hall mates in a space wagon a few days back. after filling our stomachs we became high on the glucose then decided to venture into changi village at 3am plus. saw not 1 not 2 not 3 not 4 but groups of ahems that brandon's always telling me about. cool. (at this point of time, grace frantically decided to lock the car doors).

Funny rongren the driver looked as though he intended to circle the area a few times which is WRONG. we were pratically gawking at them as though we're visiting the night safari.

Ok. what an eventful night already. but of all events that can happen, we spotted one of the 'ahems' getting into a car. of all directions that he could drive towards, funny rongren the driver decided to tail them.... until the car disappeared into a secluded carpark... we HAD to lose them don't we.

I'm sure most people reading this would know what the 'ahem's i'm talking about. whenever i think of them i'll get reminded of brandon's famous :"aei... ah bing ge... lai lai lai..." BRRR. i think the ah bing ges intended to go geylang, not here.

I was excessively amused than disturbed. something must be terribly wrong with me.

personality test

2005-09-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

Hi! since i didn't know what the f-.... fish i want in life so i thought HEY! let's do a personality test! it might be able to tell me something yeah! and this is wat i got from Get to know yourself better. (i'm so sorry that i'm not able to link this due to some obscure reason)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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WHat the hELL STUPID get to know yourself better shiT! what'dya meanYou like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

You like to flirt and behave seductively.
You like to flirt and behave seductively.
You like to flirt and behave seductively.
You like to flirt and behave seductively.
You like to flirt and behave seductively.

WHAT THE FISH! UNTRUE! UNCREDIBLE! PUI!!

Who thinks it's true raise up your hand!!!

What a senseless and juvenile test.

photo of myself

2005-09-20T02:30:00.000+08:00

Hi here's a nice picture to cheer myself up while i THINK. i hardly can find any nice photos OF MYSELF ONLY.

brain-using dilemma

2005-09-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

Ok i realised what's my problem when i said i feel that i might never fall in love again. it's because i'm afraid of committment and that's because i don't wanna break up again and that's because it makes me sad and depressed boohoo. it makes me go crazy and do bad things to people which results in them having to be VERY tolerant.

That is why for 12 months i was just waiting around for a-miracle-to-happen-that-can-make-me-more-confident-of-myself.

Till now it hasn't.

And i'm thinking it might never.

So i thought that sucks.

And then you might say that i think too much. Use your heart! don't use your brain! your brain so lousy, of not much use anyway! save it for better use lah! like exams of something.

But i keep THINKING that if i feel too much and not THINK i'll be letting myself down cos i'm not being LOGICAL and whatever i feel will not make SENSE.

I like to think. No wonder i'm indecisive.

When people say 'i heart you' i probably say 'i brain you'.

Maybe i should just take things easier. maybe with a grain of salt or something.

Let's talk about my cousin now. cousin kaikai is going oxford to study law! *gasp! your cousin so smart! you never inherit the genes are. *sniggers

Anyhow... yes my cousin is freakingly good. i brain him. i grew up calling him kaikai. but now that i'm 19 and he's 21, it's kinda weird to call him kaikai still, especially since we're not on very close terms. and another cousin weiwei. i don't call him weiwei anymore. and another cousin called xiao niu (little cow). i might still call him xiao niu now and then.

Back to kaikai. it's quite an irony that we only thought of exchanging msn contacts when he's going overseas. i guess that's how distance can make you grow closer.

Talking about oxford, i'll think of myself in NUS. thinking about NUS, i'll start to think about my 4-day mid-term break. and i still don't understand how why where what who when. the break starts from monday ends on thurdays. so new term starts on a friday hence the 1st week ends on a thursday. so would all the other weeks. so basically this fri belongs to odd week up till thurs where i'll have sociology tutorial and no econs tutorial. the fri after this thurs belongs to even week up till the next thurs where i'll have no soci tutorial but my econs one. darn confused? you bet i am too!!!

Whew. this is making my life more complicated than ever. but i cannot insult NUS here in case some desparados are spending time reading random blogs to see if we write anything offensive so that they can sue us. whew. if you ask me, that's even a greater waste of time then asking me to walk 5km for the NUS heritage walk. pooh! seriously got nothing better to do isit.

English language

2005-09-15T17:46:00.000+08:00

In light of my english language test at 8am tomorrow, let me tell you about...

Why English Is So Hard To Learn

We must polish the Polish furniture.
He could lead if he could get the lead out.
The farmer used to produce produce.
The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuses.
The soldier decided to desert in the desert.
This was a good time to present the present.
A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.
When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
I did not object to the object.
The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
The bandage was wound around the wound.
There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
They were too close to the door to close it.
The buck does funny things when the does are present.
They sent a sewer down to stitch a tear in the sewer line.
To help with the planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
The wind was too strong to wind the sail.
After a number of injections my jaw got number.
Upon seeing the tear in my clothes i shed a tear.
I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.
How can i intimate this to my most intimate friend?

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no more love

2005-09-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

I'm scared that... i might never fall in love again. haha you laugh! but it's true! i might be able to live with someone but i might not be able to feel myself hopelessly smitten and dizzy with love which could make me feel like the world is beautiful and perfect again.

That sucks.

woe in hall

2005-09-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

Everything wants a part of me! studies/kr choir/other hall stuff/friends/family/sleep etcetc i don't have enough time. so why am i spending my precious time whining here???

While blogging i can hear my readings screaming for my attention.

I feel so tired sometimes. tired of putting up a front. tired of smiling and trying to look happy and friendly to people. i mean i really wanna be friendly to people. but sometimes i don't feel too friendly but i still have to try to be friendly. know what i mean?

The friends i make in school could be so superficial. 90% of them don't really give a damn i'm sure.

SO political! SO competitive! SO superficial!

I'm constantly aware of how much my hall mates are and how little i am. honestly, most of them not only excel in studies. they can play handball basketball soccer swim run hop jump THEN they can sing play piano dance AND be super sociable at the same time. THEN they are some president or chair of some club/team/committee simultaneously. so what am i doing here?? qingyou picked the wrong person in man.

Not that i'll just continue being a slug. i can only try my best to achieve more. with low capabilities you'll only be looked down upon.

I love the people in E block. i really do. although i might not totally agree with the way they run things. therefore i hate to see some of my friends unhappy with the block. i hate to hear things like : "i wanna move to other blocks." it makes me sad. boohoo.

I sound so woeful. woe is me. bOO! i miss my old friends. but i have so little time for them.

stop rumours from reaching my ears

2005-09-07T03:20:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that after one entire year people are still discussing about our break up. i've been putting up with all the rumours and gossips coming from all channels for months. i didn't even know we were THAT high profile.

I know i should have said this earlier but... i'm sorry i'm not really interested in knowing what other people are rumouring about him or me, regardless of whether they're true or not. it's very hurtful. people can say what they want but i'm not interested to know ya. because i still hold the initial belief that he has done as much as possible what he thought was good for me. because i already realised long ago that there's no point habouring bad feelings for anyone cos you'll only be torturing yourself.

So there's no point telling me what kinda stories have been going around.

I'm sick of this sh*t.

I'm living my new life now.

I'm sorry if they're still stuck there.

I'm not feeling depressed.

If i'm down i can go look for ah zek's moo moo:

IBG has officially ended. the defending champion didn't manage to defend the champion (which means us). but it's ok. i'm not depressed either. i've never, in my entire life, played in so many games before: soccer netball frisbee handball... only 4 but considered a lot for a non-sports person like me. and out of these 4 we are champions for soccer and handball! wow the feeling of winning a game you're playing in was incredible.

So i guess IBG has achieved it's purpose for me. =)

OH and i gotta blog this funny little story down before i forget. my amnesia is bad.

Mingui is our rag chair cum self declared 3rd floor manager and my first impression of him was STERN. the way he scolded his rag helpers under stress. brr.

After rag someone told me that he often mingles around with our resident fellow's kids. (rf= administrator who lives in our block). one day the 2 kids went to his room to play when he wasn't around. they left something brown, wet and stinky behind. mingui came in and wondered what it was. he picked it up. he soon discovered that it was human shit. he questioned them. they accused him of shitting in his own room. the end.

This story was confirmed by the man himself. it's the funniest thing i've heard in hall so far. =p

I'm sure mingui doesn't know about my blog.

sick of IBG

2005-09-03T15:21:00.000+08:00

I feel sick of IBG now. fortunately it's gonna be over soon. but i've decided not to be involved anymore after the much anticipated handball games.

The biggest reason was i felt that IBG has lost its purpose. i initially thought it was a channel for block and hall bonding. apparently quite a lot of people disagree so. instead it created a wider rift between some of us.

Yeah who doesn't wanna win. i wanna win too... i just thought it was secondary. i just thought as long as everyone put in their best and have fun... the purpose is met. are sacarstic remarks necessary? do you have to get THAT pissed for not winning? helloooo... please wake up... in that case you're gonna get pissed forever in life because you'll not get to win everytime.

This is not directed at anyone in particular. but certain groups of people in general.

In any case, i've done my part for IBG. i've come down to train and cheer in almost every game and played in some, although i'm not much of a sports person. 3 more games left and i just feel like catching up on my tutorials and sleep now.

Not wrong right?

Some things are just not meant to be.

2005-08-30T01:29:00.000+08:00

Some things are just not meant to be.

ibg open hse birthday

2005-08-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

People are telling me to "face up to the world and move on" that sorta thing in response to my last entry. do i sound THAT depressed? because i'm really not. i'm perfectly FINE! i was seriously tokingkok (at least regarding the 1st part). i can't even really lick my elbows.

Seriously. i'm only 19. which part of 19 should i feel so depressed about? lol. maybe the 9 part.

IBG: still on-going. although i complain a lot about waking up early and getting tired and taking up too much time, it's still a lot of fun and i'll never regret participating in it. however as a freshie... i'm starting to get very disappointed with it. i dunno if it's just me. i see people losing their sportsmanship just because they wanna win. it's only ibg loh c'mon. and we're starting to lose our spirit and enthusiasm in playing. or maybe i got my expectations too high after listening to the constant drownings of seniors on how united and high-spirited the eguanas are supposed to be.

3RD FLOOR OPEN HOUSE: basically where we 3rd floor girls play host to the rest of the block. provide refreshments and open up our rooms for viewing. basically felt like chinese new year cos people room-hop while nibbling tidbits from each room (which weren't originally meant for them). =P

Our refreshments were good enough ok. look.

We had brownies beneath the aluminium foil and cocktail in the red cooler. all home-made. =) not that it's made by me but... ya home-made.

Sunny sitting on my stool and drinking from my mug. from here you can compare our disparate sizes.

Me rongren anuja christina

Me shiun yu (i totally dunno how to spell her name!) and jiemin.

Sunny kyle (or carl or caryle or karyle or none of the above) austin and lishi.

Kumar stinks (literally). look at his sweat man. luckily i stopped him in time from sitting on my bed.

26TH AUGUST: i skipped my 8am lecture cos i wanted to sleep... i feel so DUH now. but anyway i sincerely wanna thank all my old friends who remembered my birthday. jian sok laoda siewkia zhenhui davin cheeguan blue's clue mermaid brandon bra xinying enting... although i seldom see you guys now you still remembered!! *touched.

For those who forgot... BAH! but it's ok... haha...

Went out for dinner with don who just came back from air-grading. pass already lah! hao lian lah!

We had chinese food and the first dish was the poor prawn:

I love prawns. yummmm... but must be big enough...

Fast-forward... when we've finished everything:

Nice wine:

But this is how jinling will look like when you have too much to drink.

Act classy:

Act drunk:

Act beer girl:

Being a super sua gu auntie, i didn't know that wine has higher alcohol content than beer so i ordered wine instead. secondly i didn't really know how to drink one properly. so i ended up looking stupid. i bet for the 2++++ years that you've known me you didn't know i was THAT stupid. hahaha...

Thanks don so much for everything! really enjoyed myself. =)

Just when we wanted to take a group photo the batt when flat. somehow this always happens to me. pui.

So i'm sorry that you only get to see me most of the time. this is my blog so beat it.

More photos coming up!

lack of respect

2005-08-25T14:58:00.000+08:00

Zhenbin says lack of respect. i've never thought of it that way before... but now come to think of it... YA!! that's a hell lack of respect damn you! everything that you've done almost couldn't make up for that.

one year

2005-08-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

Wah! i'm damn xian now lah. my readings are all like lagging like xiao can. and hardly prepare for tutorials one. too many things to do. like laundry and cleaning up of room. damn xian can. i can't stand the dust. and got so many IBG trainings and games. already never go for all still so busy. what happen to my resolve in being a mugger. xianz diao.

Above is my whining in lousy english. if you've noticed, although i speak lousy english all the time, i still try hard to blog good english so that it'll be easier on the eye. i just felt like blogging some of my conversational english today.

Hmms i don't really have any subject on my mind to blog about today. but usually after i make a statement like that i'll start to blog some nonsensical rubbish which irritates people. so let's think of something important to talk about tonight.

Ah ha! my birthday should be quite important. it's tomorrow you see. thus tomorrow marks the 1st anniversary of my SINGLE status! (please don't ask me why).

One of the things that i've noticed about most of my friends... is that once they were attached before, then break up, it'll only be a matter of a few months before they get attached again. in fact i can't think of any friend i know right now who has remained single for more than one year after breaking up (ok i'm sure there are just that i can't think of any names right now).

Which could imply the attached status as being the preferred one after comparison?

They don't like to remain single?

Are they lonely?

I've remained single for one year already! can you do it?? can You? can yOu? can yoU?? wahahaha!! i can lick my elbow! can you do it??!

Hence as you can see, i've made no point or whatsoever in whatever i've written above. it's not meant to mean anything at all. i mean it when i said i've got no particular subject on my mind. jinling can remain single for life for who cares if she'll never meet any good guy who loves her whom she loves back.

Ladidadida.

Note: i don't think people will usually commemorate a one-year anniversary of the single status. but this special occasion simply coincides with my birthday.

I dunno if i've completely gotten over it. sometimes i think i did... but there would be certain moments when i can't help but still think back. about what it could have been. maybe you're not supposed to get over it. you just move on.

But i'm very grateful to him... for letting me go. for releasing me to search for someone else who will truly deserve my love. so i only wish that he'll remain happy always too.

I wanna be happy too. somebody reading this quick do something to make me happy tomorrow. i hate turning 19. i've come to a point of time when women hate birthdays cos it implies that they're aging.

Ok i don't hate my birthday. but it's a day for me to reflect on what i've been doing for the past year (no i don't do that on 31st decembers). and for this year... there's nothing in particular that i'm proud of.

The day will also remind me that i'm older now and age is no longer an excuse for my incompetence in handling certain tasks.

What a damn yawning entry. *yawns i'm going to sleep. lights off now.

Euganas!

2005-08-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you about something which i cannot stand. that is people sms-ing me every few hours to ask me "what are you doing now?" "where are you now?" "what are you doing later?" "how's your lunch?" etcetc stuff like that. i dunno what's my problem. i just suddenly have a problem with people doing that.

Neither do i like people sms-ing me for the whole day in the form of a super long conversational kinda thing that ends with good night today and good morning the next and the next and the next and it continues and continues forever. i used to do that with people but i'm no longer like that.

At first i thought maybe it's cos i'm in a bitchy mood. i just get pissed with every single thing. but then i start to realise in whichever situation i'm in, i'll still tend to get at least a little bit irritated.

I know people just wanna shower me with some heartfelt care and concern. and i'm very grateful for that. maybe once or twice a day is ok... or during special occasions it's ok... but every few hours... is too much. i feel much obliged to reply every sms and somehow i feel very trapped and restricted. as though there is an extra responsibility on my part to tell you what i'm doing every few hours.

Am i being an ingrate here?

Maybe it'll be different if it's my boyfriend. but i highly doubt so.

On the other hand, i've been like that before. i've been someone who needs to sms people every few hours during my most depressed and lonely days. i knew i was being an obsessive pest but... i just needed people around me. needed some care and concern. so... that would be a different case right? hence i wouldn't mind if people are doing this in such a situation cos i'll totally understand.

I'm no longer the kind who needs to sms or receive sms-es from my boyfriend every few hours. i dunno what caused the change in me. maybe i've become more independent. or perhaps i've just become more occupied with things.

It's a good thing right? at least i know he would be glad.

Ok happier things now. i scored a soccer goal in IBG! muahahaha... it's not really a real goal lah... it was during the penalty shoot-out. our final game. my kick was one of the 2 that brought us the win! damn exciting can!

IBG that is the inter-block games. didn't really expect to go away with the top spot cos all along we hadn't been strong in soccer. whoa but we made it! incredible. we third floor girls can upgrade from being bronze girls to golden girls already k. hahaha...

I'm damn hao lian lah! it's not everyday that you get to score to win ok... wahahahahahaha....we are number ONE in girls soccer!!

Team eguanas gogogogogogogo.....

smoke what smoke

2005-08-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

I HATE SMOKERS.

They can stink and rot their teeth and blacken their lungs for all i care. but they pass on a social marginal cost of shortening my life and make me stink too. that stinks. (pun intended)

I declare that smokers are one of the most inconsiderate people on earth.

Please tell me why would anyone smoke. it's not the same as drinking coffee in a coffee shop ok. although they're both social activities.

It'll be even cheaper if you don't buy any cigerattes at all, right?

Grr.

I'm going to hate you if you don't stop smoking when you're back. but not like i can control when you wanna smoke.

Whatever.

=(

At this point of time, i heard a conversation going on through the windows. two people were shouting across the building from their respective rooms i guess.

A girl was shouting something like :" what are you doing?"
Guy sounding like he's shouting above my room replied some sort like:" i was taking out my shirt then i saw someone staring at me."

Sounds vaguely like en wei but i shan't make any assumptions here. i don't think he stays directly above my room.

Hmmm...

In any case... our rooms here are in close approximity to the opposite block. therefore it's very crucial to shut the blinds before i change. i tend to forget sometimes.... but i'll catch myself before... before something regrettable happens.

laptop & 'kerchiefs

2005-08-18T09:32:00.000+08:00

Cheers!! i finally got my laptop... after much anticipation... i love my laptop man. a sleek and slim A4 size that can let me carry it around without much hassle. it's quite important, considering that i'm such a lazy girl with arms nowhere near strong. nor do i have a servant.

Yay i think my laptop is super chio.

I'm so worn out now that i can't of anything interesting to blog about. so let's talk about HANDKERCHIEFS (or is it handkerchieves?).

The handkerchief is just a lil' piece of cloth that people carry around... but i have no understanding of why they would wanna do that, maybe other than the purpose of wiping their sweat.

A tiny piece of the 'kerchief... maybe 15cm to 15cm big... i've seen people blow their noses, wipe their sweat, wipe their blood, wipe their mouths, wipe their noses, wipe their hands, wipe their faces... then they'll fold it back and put it into their pockets... then after a while take out to wipe again... not disgusting MEH??

Do you blow your nose, put it back then wipe your face later, resulting boogie in your face?

Or do you avoid blowing your nose in the morning... till late at night when it's time to change 'kerchief then you can start to use it for nose-blowing?

Or do you blow your nose and fold that section away... and leave other sections of the 'kerchief for other purposes like wiping mouth?

How do people actually make use of their 'kerchiefs??

I know of some guys who actually like to have one on stand-by in case a girl (whom he might happen to fancy) needs one.

Girl walkingwalking then suddenly fell down on the road. elbow bleeds

Girl: ouch! ahhhh.... so painful!! *whines

Guy With 'Kerchief: oh no... are you ok? oh my god you are bleeding!!

GWK whips out his power 'kerchief in the speed of sonic the hedgehog and carefully... gently... slowly... tied up Girl's wound with it.

While Girl looks at him admiringly.

When GWK was done, he looked up and found Girl looking at him... they gazed at each other tenderly.... somehow or another, their faces seem to inch closer to each other... and closer and closer and....

That's so channel 8.

In real life, some guys would offer the girl his 'kerchief when her nose is watering or needs to wipe her mouth after a meal or when she accidentally dirtied herself or her clothes.

Sounds like a very old traditional thing to do... but they are still doing it... although rare.

Eh but guys please offer girls a clean 'kerchief ok. if you feel that you might have blown your nose with it but you can't really recall... just forget it. i would prefer a tissue anyday.

Formal dinner

2005-08-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

I'm really not in a good mood recently. i get reeeaaally irritated at the slightest thing. maybe it's not very obvious to most people... but pardon me if you always get snapped at...

My fac replied my SOS email by asking me to read the modular system carefully... and of course pointing out what i had missed. i read so many times already ok and that stupid part was hidden in between some inconspicuous page that no one will ever think of looking at.

Kah pui!

But do you know that taking pictures with some good-looking males can actually lighten your mood.

That's Austin from the US. he claims that singaporeans like to crack horny jokes. it has become such a norm to us already that we don't even realise we crack horny jokes all the time. take note of the jokes you and your friends crack from now on. they're probably mostly horny.

Oh yeah and the pictures were taken on formal dinner night.

Let's put good-looking guys on hold first. my neighbours are more important. introducing...

We the 3rd floors ladies desiree, pearline and grace.

Plus sherrilyn (erm i'm not quite sure how to spell her name).

Nancy =)

Psycho sister anuja lives on the 5th floor.

So does melody.

And valerie too.

Jiemin from 7th floor.

Xiao yun is so chio!!

K i guess that's all for my e block girls.

Enwei is so good-looking that he made me look ugly beside him.

Kendrick commented that : " wah you look different today leh. you look pretty." -_-

Here's shujun from cedar too =)

Sweetie small steph =D

Teckie!! he's for pageant!!

My date zhen bin bought me flowers and a necklace =D in return i gave him a humongous mug to eat noodles inside. i thought it'd be very useful...

Here's my flowers. the petals were already drooping severely when i tried to take them. but still looks damn nice right hehe... thanks to my superb flower arrangement and photographic skills.

I joined choir for their after-dinner concert. i made that term up. it's actually called 'star to burst' but like whatever.

And by the way did you notice my stupid tan line? yucks it's gross.

I hate the hall computer room cos there're always weird people inside using the computers and talking and giggling to themselves. it's damn freaky. hope my laptop arrives soon.

Bra came to roll out a red carpet (actually rug) in my room. he treated me to lunch and gave me a photoframe with a beyootiful photo inside to celebrate my birthday in advance. he does seem rather free & rich nowdays lol.

My entry sounds totally disconnected. gotta go sleep night!

FREE day

2005-08-11T11:28:00.000+08:00

Free day~! no lectures no tutorials no nothing. oh i've got the formal dinner later. looking all red and ugly from my burn. bah.

And nope i haven't gotten my laptop yet. blogging from the hall computer room.

The NUS modular system is killing me. it's insanely confusing and unclear. we are all contantly bound by the fear of screwing up. ME for one, almost did. or rather, thought i did. because there are so many restrictions and guidelines you have to adhere to. true that you are free to take a wide variety of subjects.... but under certain conditions... which could drive you mad if you did not read every single word of every single page of the website.

Wished it could be more clear.

Ahh but well i have reached the end of the spoon-feeding era. time to feed myself. DIY everything. i even have to clean my own hostel room now. (bra is very noble to help me clean the super dirty corners + blinds + the ceiling fan =D)

Feel like i'm suddenly thrust into the whirling world of do-everything-yourself-no-more-hand-holding. hence, the FITTEST WILL SURVIVE!!! *background plays loud grand music with trumpets.

I dunno why i still try to act funny here. i'm in a foul mood cos i thought i screwed up my modules. i even sent a frantic SOS email to my faculty help only to discover by myself that i'm actually safe. ya ok that perked me up a little.

But the fac probably thought: aww another poor misguided little freshie.

I'm supposed to be in a foul mood too because i'm burnt and i look fugly (wenyan's favourite word) and i don't feel well.

Talking about being burnt and not feeling well. many thanks to BRA who bought me the after-sun lotion. Many thanks to my 'date' ZHENBIN who bought me moisturizer and herbal tea. manymany thanks to MUM who made barley water and bought watermelon. many thanks to my precious neighbours especially PEARLINE and DESIREE for being so sweet. =D

All makes lousy times more bearable. =)

Hope that after some time when most things have settled down, i'll have more order in my life. i'm such an ORDERLY person. i simply need order in my life. i'm the sort of person who irritates my friends by asking "so what we doing after this? then after that leh? what you wanna eat after this?" all the time.

Happy-go-lucky-go-with-the-flow is not me. please tell me if you find me very difficult to get along with lol =P

NATIONAL DAY

2005-08-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

Why i know i love my country:

1) always filled with a sense of pride when i say i'm from SINGAPORE.
2) i miss HOME every single day when i'm overseas.
3) there's nowhere else i wanna SETTLE DOWN permanently (although on some occasions i secretly wished to grab some rich angmo and therefore automatically obtain the green pass).
4) will willingly spend time furnishing our foreign students with things they need to know about SINGAPORE.
5) never will complain about the extra 'SINGAPORE STUDIES' module we have to take.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY there :) cheerios to 40 years of nation building.

lorry fetish

2005-08-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

I'm burnt! as in sunburnt. rag day was woah. 3 months of solid hard work just for that few seconds of fame. they had been piecing together scraps of recycled materials for a gigantic float... wished i had a picture of it but i don't... perhaps will get one from someone next time... it looked like this huge boat with a sail with a monster & a clock tower inside. plus some panals on n off the boat.

All was merry and colourful until the monster sticks his head out, then the panels and sail will switch to dark gloomy colours. after that some fight will go on which will end with a galliant warrior decapitating the monster while shouting YAGHHHH and all turns colourful again.

I know the above desciption sounds dead boring but trust me, the presentation was amazing. it's just me. i'm not a good desciber.

3 months (if i'm not wrong) of planning and execution... weeks of almost 24-hour rag rush... large amount of monetary investment... all we got was a lame 'environmentally-friendly' award. ok it's not nice to say 'lame'. it's important to save the environment. but we didn't even get a single award for the design & presentation of the float itself. quite sad huh.

And they either had to buy extra materials like tin cans and drink cartons, or get sponsers to provide them, just to come up with an impressive float to win the competition. is it really environmentally friendly? and the amount of money they spent on this thing... what's the purpose of rag day really??

But questions aside, we had lotsa fun working at this event... =D if you ever caught our presentation, do you see the sail changing colour? it was me pulling at it. lol...

And a big **CHEER** for the rag team too. =D

Opps i think i'll have to mention as well that i was with the kent ridge rag team lol... i haven't been involving myself with any arts fac activities at all...

I'm starting to have a fetish of lorries. i wanna be on a lorry all the time. it all started on inauguration day when we all had to wear formal outfits. a button-up blouse and long pants was what i wore. when it ended, some senior from my hall drove a lorry to send us back to hall in batches. the entire OG managed to squeeze into the ancient-looking lorry, squatting down, feeling like some bangladesh workers big time! so UNGLAM! in formal wear you know!

Whee but we had so much fun in the lorry, cheering leering and waving at passer-bys. when we realised that people outside are staring at us in some sort of a strange way, we could only shout "NTU ROX!" to them...

My second experience on a lorry was in the middle of the night when we had to transport a part of the float over from our hall. sitting on the edge thinking i might slide and fall everytime we reach a slope (hilly NUS), was... exciting. it was cool to get a tour of NUS in the silence of the night though. =)

Now i want a lorry for transportation all the time.

I can't possibly blog down all my experiences in school in one day because there is simply too much to talk about. hence what i'll do now is to....... try to blog as often as possible before i forget the details.

But generally hall life is great! somehow felt that university life wouldn't be complete without staying in a hall.

stupid idiot

2005-07-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm back again!!

Besides suffering from symptom of amnesia, clumsiness, blurness and lack of sense of direction, i've incurred extreme stupidity as well, after moving to kent ridge.

I packed my stuff this afternoon for home, walked through the gates of kent ridge while happily saying byebye to some seniors... when i realised my handphone's not with me!! without wanting to malu myself, i secretly made a detour to enter again by the back gate so that no one could see me. went back to my room but couldn't see handphone anywhere in there! arghh! emptied bag to check again. no handphone! PANIC. borrowed neighbour's phone to call my phone.

I had actually left my phone in my closet. i dunno how.

So walked out from back gate again. still slightly traumatized by the temporary loss of my precious phone. while walking i realised that as i emptied the contents of my bag, i had forgotten to put some of them back in.

DUH.

So walked back to my room again. scanned around the room for a long time to make sure i was completely equipped with what i need. and this time i actually managed to make my way to the bus stop... until i realised i had left my ez-link card behind. but by that time i simply couldn't be bothered anymore.

How stupid can i get? i swear i was already fully awake. i dunno what turned me into this stupid clumsy dork lately. maybe it's the food they feed us.

Who ever eats spicy fried rice for breakfast?

Oh and the funny dating game thing turned out to be quite fun. in the sense that people actually put in lots of effort to jio their desired dates. serenading is popular here. i have no idea why people just like to sing that lao shu ai da mi song ("mouse love rice" as some of them translated). but nevertheless they were all highly amusing to watch.

And there's the inevitable competition and rivalry between people who chose the same date. they make really pretty cards, presents etcetc. some girl pasted posters of her targetted date. you could see her proposal: WANTED. WILL YOU BE MY DATE? almost everywhere at my block. some guy announced I LOVE YOU! and jumped into the pool during the pool games.

Me i've only tried to write him something and bribe him with some chocolates so far. someone whom i've just met and found to be very nice to talk to. i wouldn't wanna feel too awkward during the dinner.

As i sneakily crept to his room to stick the letter and chocolates at his door last night, it felt like i'm in some sort of a dark conspiracy. there was this weird sense of excitement. i dunno where it came from. and this whole paragraph still sounds wrong to me.

Some senior guys have 4-5 girls going after them. but obviously i wouldn't be going after the hot stuffs. i would have to be crazy to do that. i'm very unsporty.

Back...

2005-07-28T12:38:00.000+08:00

Hi i'm back home! haha... came back to get some stuff and plan my modules and now i feel lazy to go back.

Hall orientation was... ok. like the usual orientations that i've been to. not very exciting, not much to blog about. anyway i've got about 12 days of orientation to go =X

I think the most exciting thing that happened to me was when i got lost in NUS. i was carrying those 2 damn heavy matriculation packs heading back to hall when i took the wrong direction of bus. by right it shouldn't be much of a problem cos i could just stop at the terminal and take the same bus again. sounds duh but ya, this is what happens when you do not have enough direction sense.

So that was what i did... yet i wasn't familiar with the route and missed my stop. the next stop was too far away and when i got down, i have absolutely no idea where to go from there. and suddenly it just started raining. drat. how sway can i get?!

The lost sheep somehow found her way by walking (a long way) to some bus stop which looked familiar and fortunately it was the right direction.

By the time i reached my hall i was 50% wet and 1/2 hour late for dinner. i look like i've been through hell. oh but there was still a good thing that happened to me... my neighbours were waiting for me!! so sweet of them... we all ended up finishing last in the (air-conditioned!) dining room lol...

And i dunno whether the feng shui of my room is bad or my shoes wore out, i just kept tripping my way. up the bus, down the stairs, even when walking on flat surfaces i have to trip at least thrice a day. but don't worry i haven't fallen YET. i've got a little cut on my feet though.

Oh yes and i just gotta complain about the DATING part of orientation. every freshie was anticipating some sort of secret pal dating game sponsored by sdu. but hoho we were supposed to go hunt for some senior from another block and try to date him/her to the formal dinner. "you can make banners, write notes or even serenade to him".

You're asking to go jio some guy whom i don't even know and ask him out for dinner?!?!? sounds totally wrong to me. what makes them think that everyone is super desperate to get attached??? gimme a break!

Think it's just some ploy the seniors devised to help themselves get asked out for dates. the scheming people.

moving....

2005-07-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

Cheeguan predicts that i will isolate my blog.

I really hope not haha...

I'll be moving to NUS... today! 25th july 2005 monday! i don't have a laptop yet so i'll be without access again for a few days. and my hectic life starts from then on. i'm really lazy to list out my schedule for the next few weeks so i'll just keep it in my head. but basically i have orientation for 2 freaking weeks where i also have to plan and bid for my modules and go for medical check up and go for matriculation fair and go to the hair dresser with mer and go for our bimbotic session with tru (heehee)... then classes will start.

I'll just go with the flow. (the truth is i'm sosuperstressedupnow and maybe being a typical virgo i can't stand it when everything's so out of order arghh someone please hold my hand).

Eunice mentioned to me before that she couldn't understand why some people blog everyday. haha... i guess it's like a diary to them.. they have to write down everything before they go to bed. and actually i blog almost everyday too. not that i live a very happening life... i don't really produce what-i-did-what-happened-to-me-today entries much. usually prefer to blog about my thoughts for the day.

And there are periods of time when i simply have no idea what to write about at all. maybe when i'm not thinking much. no substantial thoughts for the day.

A couple of days ago, while trying to explain market failure to cheeguan, i was reminded of my amnesia condition again(see what i mean. i even forgot that i have amnesia). i think the more i explain the more confused he got. hahaha... ay.. go ask your joel better lah. but if no one else available can try to ask me also =p

I got my overseas call today~ please try not to let your instructor mess with your head haha... sounds dangerous.

Ok enough blogging nonsense. it's late. i have not finished packing.

happy bdae to laoda

2005-07-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday dear laoda happy birthday to yooooooou~

Today's entry shall be dedicated to my lao da. cos she's 19 today and it's very important.

I dunno how she got to be called lao da but it fits cos she likes to take care of her friends a lot. and it feels so natural to call her lao da. like hey lao da! as though people have been calling her that forever and it's her name. and i vaguely remember telling tru about siyun and she goes "who?" me:"lao da" her: "oh"

I'm eternally grateful to my lao da for being the first outright support when i was at my lowest period. although at that point of time we weren't considered the bestest friends, she seemed to fully understand what i was going through and was there for me all the time. and i really mean ALL THE TIME! i felt really sorry to be bothering her all that time but she didn't seem to mind one bit.

I'll always cherish that card you bought from the bookshop for me, about your friend swallowing 8 panadols... haha... because i was sincerely very touched by it... what would i do without lao da then?!?!?!

Lao da is an i'll-be-here-for-you-when-you-are-down friend, not just to me but to sooo many of her friends as well... i know that it could be very emotionally draining for her... and that's why she's sucha kind and sweet girl! i'm sure a lot of people would agree with me. and i wished i could be more like her.

Are you reading this?!? haha... thanks for everything... although we seldom see each other now you'll always be in my heart! enjoy your birthday ~~ =D

evils

2005-07-23T01:47:00.000+08:00

I was reading a blog entry of a friend about the evils her ex-boyfriend did to her after they broke up... and i suddenly realised that i was quite lucky. ok not really suddenly, but it REMINDED me that i'm quite lucky already.

I was feeling deeply stressed & depressed during that period of time. And although a lot of times i felt that he didn't understand the way i am, my character, my behaviour... but at least he tried to be sensitive to my feelings. he did try to make me feel better in a lot of situations, to the point of lying slightly... he was able to take my abuses on him reasonably well, during that tough period of time. must have been hard on him. for that he deserves a big HUG.

Ya i know i can't stand lies. but in a way they are white lies i guess. so could be a bit more pardonable (is there sucha word?). though i wished i never had to uncover the truth.

Ya i also know that i complain about him a lot. that's because i'm a whining bitch. i've never haboured any real hatred for anyone before. perhaps cos i forget things easily. i remember most of the good things he's done and try not to think of the bad so that i'll forget them faster.

Ok of course i must again defend myself by saying that i deserved to be comforted in the first place and it's not like he's a saint.

And i miss my overseas call.

Blogging talk

2005-07-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

Yes i realise that i'm very spoilt. it's not like i'm very rich. i also dunno why i'm spoilt.

Oh yes and you do realise that no pic today! means my com is back to (almost) normal. hooray~

Yup and i also realised that there is an increasing number of people setting up their own blogs! hehe... interesting... in that way i can regularly read about wassup with them.

And a lot of people are constantly worried about the contents on their blogs being offensive to others. me too i'm worried. especially about offending my friends. which you'll never know about cos they'll just read and fume inside and never tell you. psst i don't mind friends coming to inform me if they feel uncomfortable about me writing about them.

But i feel that everyone is entitled to their own opinions. you may think that she is wrong in doing this, or judge her by what she writes on her blog... but that's just her... the way she leads her life. if you do not understand her... then you just simply do not understand. she may just be different, not neccessarily wrong. there is no absolute perfect way of life that everyone has to abide by.

In an attempt to try and defend myself, i say that.. ahem.. yes i do discuss (or gossip, to put it in a crude way) about what others write on their blogs sometimes... but i absolutely do not mean any harm. i do not intend to hurt, defame or bring them down in any way.

So to those who take people's blogs too seriously, or try to bring them down through what they write... i hereby laugh at you HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

And take care of yourself. be careful of what YOU write/say. and RELAC lah! (compliments from the MLM lady).

2005-07-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

My compulsory pic of the day was taken from the esplanade. quite blurry. if you look hard enough you may be able to spot the merlion.

A 'private number' called me yesterday. i thought it was that old weirdo who used to call and say nothing. picked it up anyway. the moment i did, i heard:" you have an overseas call..." and i got so damn excited. i was reallyreally very excited, tapping my fingers to the few seconds of connection until i heard the familiar hello. whee i have an overseas call ~!! ^-^

Hmmm why do i get so excited over a call?

Today a 'private number' called me again. "gasp my call again?!?" but it was another weirdo who couldn't be bothered to say 'sorry wrong number' and hung up. pui.

Hmmms i miss having you around.

Ok enough of my senseless ramblings.

I've always thought of myself as a very average person with a very average life. wonderful things rarely happen to me. i've also never encountered any much unfortunate events in my life. it's just... oh.. liddat loh. very normal.

Perhaps i wished i was prettier so that i could have my way more often than not (opps =P). or nerdier so that i could make it to medicine school. or richer so that i could afford more of life's luxuries.

Oh wells.

But at least i made it to university. i'm not so hideous that everyone wants to stay away. i'm not living in poverty. so when i feel grouchy again i could remind myself of the less fortunate people.

I guess... that the key to happiness is contentment. pairs hilton could be smarter but she thought she's already very smart so that's enough for her. when i'm contented with what i have i'm really much happier. but the truth is most of the time i'm not. but when life starts afresh in university, i shall try to put the pieces back again and have a clearer view of what i really want in my life.

2005-07-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

My com is still NOT OK. that lousy piece of @#$^%&^. i'm so sorry that i can't reply to any tags for now... will try to borrow someone's com soon =D

Blogging with Hello's really weird. like it's compulsory to post a picture. so i shall post the funny breadtalk $2 cake. it's real pretty. darn tiny. and $2 is on offer you know. still so expensive.

Sent brandon to off at the airport today. he says you can see that love is all around at the airport. (he copied the quote from 'love actually') envied how close and sweet they looked when he said goodbye to his parents grandparents sister & even cousins. i was never that close to my family in any way.

Suddenly recalled the box of my favourite belgian chocolates in the fridge that someone had given to me on my birthday. realized that the thoughts of them being consumed do not make my heart ache anymore. finally decided to open up and eat a piece. ummmm nice... gonna expire on september anyway...

Sometimes... when i think back on certain events of my life... i really felt very ashamed of myself. so naive. so silly. what was i thinking of. why was i even doing that. whywhywhy i felt like turning back time...

Have you ever felt that way before?

But as time passes i realised they do fade. there are a lot of things which i couldn't quite recall anymore. or the feelings aren't that strong anymore. i'm gonna try to finish up my belgian chocolates fast.

My friends from work were talking about getting married early the other day. which reminded me of my 'ambition' to marry at 25. but it suddenly came to me that it may not be very possible. see here. i'm 19 this year. i visualized myself to be going through at least a 5 year relationship before i can safely assure myself that this is the right guy i wanna grow old with. which means i gotta get that serious boyfriend by next year! *thinking... which seems to prove that my visualizations could never come through.

Ok lah maybe next year not so bad.

Arghhk! who wants me. i'm very demanding. i have high expectations of my guy. he has to give me a lot of attention; take care of me all the time; be there for me all the time; cheer me up successfully when i'm down; be very sweet; never ever lie to me etc.

So self-centered!! psst i especially can't stand dishonesty.

Actually i never knew i was like that. maybe i got spoilt from the last time. maybe it's time to grow out of such puppylove.

When i realised that this guy would potentially bring me a lot of disappoinments in future... i'd rather not have him at all and be alone.

On the other hand, i have no answer as to what a girl like jinling can offer a guy like him. no achievements no status no looks no nothing. nada! i sometimes feel like sucha little prawn beside him.

2005-07-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

I'm currently encountering some problems with my net. i can't browse any webpage at all with my browsers. can access to places like msn though. so i'm now blogging through this hello thing. dunno if it'll work. just blog in case it does. i'm desperate.

I had a lot of things to blog about these few days. stuff like NKF. but somehow while i was being denied the rights of blogging these few days, the ramblings in my head kinda vaporised.

Anyway, luckily she didn't say anything more than his pay being 'peanuts'. not good to provoke another public outrage.

Brandon's leaving for his pilot training on monday! so exciting... i wanna go too... he says there's free flow of ice-cream and good food in camp. can use lap-top and surf net even. wth such good life in camp lol... One less person around now. *grumbles...

Heyhey... by the way... thanx for patiently putting up with all my grouses/whines/complains/childishness & my whole truckload of crap all the time... thanx for loving & accepting me for being me... all my fears & insecurities... and me being a big fat procratinator (the kind which you always complain to me about, yet able to make me feel less bad about being one). few people are able to do that... really means a lot to me you know? =D

Anyway 2 months only right? i won't miss you too much then! lol... hopefully i'll see you only when you've completed what you're supposed to complete. but i'll still be very proud of you no matter whether you pass or fail ok? hehe.. ;p

It's really weird trying to blog with this funny hello thing. i shall not say too much then. please help me pray that my com will be alright soon. i feel terribly crippled without net access... =(

MLM

2005-07-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

Update on the stupid MLM thing!

She smsed me today: hi jinling. this is XX from XX. just 2 remind u about our appointment tmr at 6.30. cya! =)

I replied: i don't think i'll be interested in working n studying at the same time. wanna concentrate on studies. thanx anyway 4 ur time. =)

Which in a way is true. but if there really IS a good & legal opportunity to earn money i wouldn't let it go for nuts.

MLM: this would be a good opportunity for u 2 work with a v flexible schedule. just come n listen with an open mind! listening is free. do not listen to those cheap advice. come n see for yourself and listen 2 expert. it's ok to bring a friend to come along if u want. RELAC LAH!

=S *stunned

Me: it's ok. cos i've talked 2 my parents and they don't want me to divert my time n attention somewhere else either.

Which again is kinda true. my mum doesn't encourage me to teach tuition while studying. do i sound like a total geek to her? she asked me to RELAC.

MLM: ok... by the way just 2 let u noe that we also hav scholars in my team n they find it v worthwhile the experience 2 work here.

Me: ok... i'll ask around my friends 2 see if anyone is interested, then i'll contact you.

MLM: Thanks and i always look forward 2 meet pple who r opportunity-seeking and open-minded 2 come check out personally if the opportunity is right 4 them. god bless and stay in touch.

Saying that i'm some narrow-minded non-adventurous little prude lah. whatever. at least i'm not in deep shit like you, trying desperately to recruit innocent kids like me to recoup your losses. right? right?? i've heard of people my age getting cheated by thousands while doing this. thank you vey much.

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I met bra on fri at the train station. some colleagues who were waiting for train saw. the usual teasings about going on a 'date' as expected. but can't blame them. youngsters.

But apparently someone told someone that a guy always sees me home. from meeting a guy friend after work ---> a guy always sees me home.

Not that i'm angry lah. just that... i don't appreciate people telling untrue stuff about me behind my back. i'm sure it has happened a lot of times but this time is just happened that someone told me.

You can't control what people say. sometimes, i do say a lot of wrong things without thinking how much hurt it could inflict on others as well.

Is it true that it's only when certain things happen to yourself that you'll start to reflect and think about how you've done the same to others as well?

poached

2005-07-08T11:45:00.000+08:00

I got poached at work today. is poached the right word to use? i vaguely remember that it is, but now i'm not so sure, cos i visited www.dictionary.reference.com and it says:

1)To trespass on another's property in order to take fish or game.
2)To take fish or game in a forbidden area.
3)To become muddy or broken up from being trampled. Used of land.
4)To sink into soft earth when walking.
5)a.To take or appropriate something unfairly or illegally.
b.Sports. To play a ball out of turn or in another's territory, as in doubles tennis.

So that means i'm the fish isit?

Anyway it all took place in the toilet. i was taking my usual toilet break (i go once every hour to slack there). i was at the sink with this woman i've never seen before. could see that she was dressed very well, but not exactly office wear.

She was washing her hands when she suddenly turned to me and said:"i heard there's a peeping tom here ah."

Me:" wow. really? that's new to me."
Her:" ya that's why they now require a key to get in here."
Me thinking peeping toms in female toilets of an office building? how? i don't understand... almost all office toilets need keys wat :" er ok... you work next door isit?"

And it got her started on how wonderful is her job and the products that she's selling. according to her, they are so wonderful that you wouldn't believe it until you've seen it.

Wah. so wonderful how come i haven't heard of it. you earning big bucks?

Then she went on further to ask me to work for the company. promote their products and courses. " let's make a tentative appoinment now to talk about this shall we?" she says.

"Oh it's great that you are working as a telemarketer now! you now already have a huge pool of contacts which you could bring over to our company!" she whispers.

Erm... you mean steal my current company's database and handover to YOUR company? is this even legal? why are you WHISPERING??

Ok let me get this right. i'm currently working in the direct marketing section now, and this person working next door deals with MLM (multi-level marketing). she's asking me to work for HER company, bringing in MY current company's database.

Is that how the real world functions all the time?

I'm not certain if this was what she meant. afterall, she did not try to entice me with all the lush benefits i could reap. she kinda forced me to make TENTATIVE appointment with her though.

Plus, i heard that for MLM, for every person you manage to rope in to work for the company, you get some kind of commission, hence her persistence...

Sanny says this kind could be cheat money. they might ask you to surrendar some of your hard-earned money in order to earn more money. haha... good to know more though. i'll definitely never ever invest my $$$ earned by sweat & blood to do something i absolutely have no confidence in doing well ie sales.

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Watched Initial D today. i totally had no idea what's DRIFTING before i watched the movie. i thought it's like when a car speeds across a valley, it floats in the air for a while and that would be DRIFTING. makes sense.

I had no interest nor knowledge in street cars or car racing at all. i watched it cos got JAY CHOU, just like why most people watched it.

Highly interesting movie. the racing scenes were very exciting, although you can always predict that he'll win everytime. 99% of the cast acted as some cool dude (with exception of the girl who acted cute). the rapport between the cast was hilarious.

I dunno what's jay acting. he's really not acting at all. everything you heard about him just being himself? it's true. he stones 90% of his scenes. talk about an easy job.

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I finally got accepted into kent ridge hall! yippe! i'm so happy... after everything that i've gone through...

I hereby swear that i WILL NOT go clubbing all the time. WILL NOT NOT attend lectures and fail my modules like so many of the horror stories that i've heard.

I WILL be a mugger. i WILL do well. i know i've said that throughout my entire j2 year but hey i did become a mugger nearing the end. although i now know that's way insufficient. i've tasted failure and learnt my lesson!

i love my blog

2005-07-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

Thanks to everyone who has tagged! hehe... i generated a record-breaking number of 55 hits today (not that it's even a lot). mostly from unfamiliar sources. wonder if it's because of the new design... so maybe it's good that not everyone tagged, if not the taggie would have burst! =P

But continue tagging anyway haha... i love tagboards. taggietagtagtag.

I didn't go to work yesterday, cos it was the end of the my campaign and apparently the project leader gave me a day's break. so i took the day to do my blog. i seriously took the whole day. woke up at 7.40am (!!) to talk to my leader, then decided to make a new skin! sat in front of the computer labouriously searching for designs, looking for materials, looking a bit a bra's book, figuring what all those codes mean...

This is damn hard work!! i diligently worked till nightfall and tada!! the first proper looking skin design i've ever made in my life. i've made a few others before but they were all done quite hastily.

All the effort! whew! i feel so accomplished. this skin would be here to stay for quite long!

With a new design i shall make special effort to write nicely and intelligently now. i hope. thou shalt not whine nor complain too much in thy blog as of previously.

Okays! i'm feeling happier at work now as the telemarketers get more friendly with each other. we are having more joy & laughter in the office, while getting more complains from the permanent staff. we started to notice a super chio lady in the office and some of the girls were considering switching to the other side.

Work itself could be interesting as well. there were numerous intriguing conversations happening between telemarketers and the business managers over the phone... words were exchanged that could never be forgotten.

I'll never forget the time when Yoga called Khong Guan Ltd and asked for mr. khong guan. or when Vera was told that the person she's looking for is dead. told in a totally blunt and 'as-a-matter-of-fact'-ly way.

I'll miss all of them when school starts! but yay got seafood session on monday haha... hope everyone would be able make it... =)

Sparkling brand new!

2005-07-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

New blogskin!

I've had my sweet pinkish skin for more than half a year. i still love it a lot, but decided to change for something new! whee~~ this blog is best viewed using IE. if not you'll be missing out on a lot like the flash and music.

And the most importantly i made this whole thing myself! from scratch! not piecing codes together like what i did for my pink blog hehe... wooo what an achievement.. haha...

"Hao lian lah!"

Yeah this blog has quite a lot of pink too. but i shall call it the chobits blog.

People who happened to stop by pleaseplease tag my board okie? tell me if i should take the text on the left away cos i feel that the whole thing looks kinda messy and squeezy. no space to breathe.

Or that if it looks unbalanced.

Just give me some comments... =)